Yesterday was a bit of a nightmare! The wind here has been dreadful and had blown away my wee treasure's trampoline along loads of garden's and when we got to it, It was impaled on a washing pole totally destroyed. Luckily It never hurt anyone or smashed any window's. I should have dismantled It a while back so I only have myself to blame.
Things got a little worse when I slipped on my path wearing silly boots and hurt my back, I was sore and physically sick so I had to turn back from heading to work. I had made it a good part of the way there aswell! typical! I slept for hours yesterday and have stayed in my pyjamas taking it easy.
I feel a lot better today and have spent almost the whole day stopping by loads of journals. It's been really interesting. Some were funny some were sad and a few were heartbreaking to read. It made me want to push my arms through the computer and squeeze these people with the biggest hugs possible. Their courage and strength left me stuck for words in total admiration.
Everybody does have problems, granted, of one sort or another I know, but these people are on another level, fighting a different battle. I have had a few strange looks here today as I constantly re-filled cups with tea and coffee without being asked! very much a tea drinker when I get upset! lol.
I looked through my old book of poems I wrote ages ago and thought who better to share them with than my fellow J-Landers! I went through a time of trying to write songs and managed a few tunes to go with the words, but I never did anything with them. I wrote them all in my big poetry book and kept them safe through all the years of moving from house to house.
The one I will share today was after I had been on a day trip with Mister Man and my Wee Treasure to the Zoo for the day. I had loved going to the zoo on many previous occassions but this particular day was to be my saddest. I managed to get through the day for the sake of the wee one but it was hard. When I got home, I just had to write down how I felt and I didn't settle until I had done it.
Pacing up and down, trapped in a zoo,
this is so wrong, for a big cat like you.
Your eyes they will haunt me, staring and sad
confined to a small cage, I would go mad.
I wish I could free you, just open the door
let you run wild, to hunt and explore.
I tell you I'm sorry and say It out loud
I weave In and Out of the gathering crowd.
I make my way down to the chimpanzee's
to see them swinging up high in the tree's.
There's one large lady, lying in the hay,
her eye's tell the story, No-one will play.
I feel your lonliness, I understand
I want to sit beside you and hold your hand.
I tell you I'm sorry through the tears that I cry.
I blow you a kiss and wave you goodbye.