Welcoming A New Blogger.

Hi everyone, I am finally back!. I am sorry to have been away for so long. I hope you have all been keeping well and look forward to catching up with you all. Today has been quite a special day as I am so pleased to be Introducing someone new to the world of blogging ..... Drum Roll ..... none other than ..... My Dad!! At the young age of 80, he has now started his own blog!! lol. I honestly take my hat off to him for all the remarkable things he does at his age. I guided a little bit with the template and hope you will all help by stopping by and saying hello, as I know he would be thrilled with any comments and tips!! He has his second book going on sale shortly and will be more than happy to chat about this or any other topics. I hope he does not want to take up hand gliding next as I am scared of heights!! lol. Take Care, Back Soon, Love Pam.xx You can find his new blog here http://lastofthehardhatdivers.blogspot.com/

Farewell My Friend

Dear Jane,
I have never been at a loss so much for words in my entire life, as i am right now. I can't see my screen properly for tears as i try to type. I was told just moments ago that you are now with the Angels. Oh Jane, I feel like a piece of my heart has broken. You have been my friend for such a long time now and i am devastated that you have gone. I am going to miss you so much. I see quite a lot in my job and deal with a lot of different types of poorly people, but you are so very different Jane, You truly are One in a Million. You started your journey with courage, strength, dignity, and mountains of humour and kept all of these things going throughout. I don't know how you managed to do that.

I would be reading one of your stories in tears one minute and the next few seconds later, be in stitches. What a fabulous, funny and amazingly beautiful lady you are and always will be. I will keep you in my memories until the day i see you again. Thank you for not only being my friend but by sharing your story, you have helped others to overcome many obstacles. There is no more suffering with pain for you now and i am so thankful for that. I know how much Martin and the family meant to you, you always made me feel like a welcome friend reading your stories and I am keeping them in my thoughts and prayers.

I used to finish speaking to you by saying i would hold you close and today will be no exception. I love you so much and always will my brave, brave friend, keeping you close as usual. Rest In Peace Jane. All my Love, Pam. xx

Last Of The Hard Hat Divers By Bob Sinclair

Hello Everyone. I hope you are all well. I have set up a Facebook Page for my dads' new book now and hope that you can all show some support for him there.
Please Become a Friend and like this page and tell your friends too. We are trying to raise the profile of my 79 year old dads' 1st book called Last Of The Hard Hat Divers.

This book is filled with a large slice of unreported history, filled also with humour to make you laugh aloud, filled at times with the pathos of tragedy that might make you weep.
It tells in detail how German Bombers almost killed him in WW2. How a diver was able to get drunk on Whisky on the sea bed!.

How a British Submarine was lost with all hands due to human error and not enemy action. How his father escaped death a few times as a Merchant Seaman and as a Salvage Man and how an uncle survived most of the war in a Prison Camp. A book that demands attention to the follies of mankind.

"Lest We Forget".

Take Care, Back Soon. Love Pam.xx

Last Of The Hard Hat Divers by Bob Sinclair

Hello Everyone. I hope you are all well. I have been recuperating at home and I am almost back to my old self... Pain Free! It has been such a long time and I am so grateful that the Operation was a success. I have put my horrible hospital experience behind me now and I am hoping to get back to work very soon which will be great. It will be 12 weeks In total that I will have been off for!!! To say I have been going a bit stir crazy is a bit of an understatement!! lol.

I can Imagine that there will be a few of you reading the title of my entry and wondering what on earth I am on about. Well this is the bit that makes me smile and forget all the bad stuff. The title is the name of a Book called "Last Of The Hard Hat Divers" written by none other than.....wait for it.... My Dad!!!. At the Grand old age of 79!!!, he now has his book on Amazon for sale from the 1st of June. I am so Proud of him, as are all of us In my family. The book Is about my dads' experiences' as a Deep Sea Diver and the stories are brilliant. After hearing him tell me a few of them one morning In his kitchen, I told him to go for It and write them down and to my absolute delight. He truly did! lol. The Picture on the front of the book Is my dad (The one on the right Grinning like a cheshire cat!! lol) and his friend Martin.

Some bits are so funny they leave you In stitches while others are much more serious where It Is like he Is In a Real life C.S.I. with him having to dive Into deep waters to recover bodies!!. I will be spending an awful lot of time doing my very best to leave links on diving pages etc. and I will do my very best to promote his book. I thought It was quite unique having a dad that used to be a deep sea diver! but now I think It's astounding that I have a dad that now has his own book for sale! Way to go Dad.

If anyone Is Interested or knows of anyone that would be Interested In this Book, Please help by using/forwarding this link. Last Of The Hard Hat Divers Any help to promote this book In any way will be greatly appreciated by myself and of course my dad! lol. ...........Right, I must fly, Need to make my This Man famous!!!! Take Care, Back Soon, Love Pam. xx

Hospital Hell

Hello Everyone. I hope you are all well. I want to say a Massive Thank You to My Fav other man.... Morton for updating people on my situation. Thank you for my lovely messages of support. I got home on Friday 5th of Feb and have been so pleased to away from the hospital. I totally sympathise with you Mort and feel very angry towards our so called "care".
I phoned at 7am as requested on the sheet to make sure there was a bed for me as I was so far away. This was not my local hospital and I was asked to to this check on the day I was due to go in. The woman told me to come to a specific ward and I would be given my bed. There was a wee hiccup with travel arrangements and Mr Man and I had to get the bus, which was a little stressful but okay.

We arrived for 11am as requested and the nurse asked us to go in to the dayroom, which was an extremely small room with hardly any seats, a T.V., and a sprinkle of books and wait. Another nurse came in and took my name and date of birth and said she too would be back in 5 mins with information about where I was to go. I waited and waited and was becoming very anxious as Mr man had to be making a move to get back home for our daughter and the weather was playing havoc. More snow!! We were given a cuppa and a sandwich after somebody asked from the room! At 2.15pm I was asked to go Into a room to be admitted! I had my blood pressure taken and was given water whilst a slightly panicked nurse kept repeating how high It was! Not helping my situation.

I was then asked to go back and wait in the room until a bed was available as there weren't any! I sadly kissed goodbye to my man and was left alone In a tiny room freaking out about the impending op. At 3.45 I was told I would be put In a room 2 floors down In a hostel which was still In the hospital, just miles away along a gigantic corridor, but that I wouldn't be able to contact any nurses etc as there wasnt any there!! I was given the wards phone number and told to put It In my mobile phone and call If there were any problems.
I don't think on looking back I was believing what was happening. I just had to do what they said.

I was shown the room and told to go to the dayroom In there and speak to the people at night as they would be nice! I was then taken back up the stairs to the dayroom! and left once again. A doctor came and on what shouldve been a routine exam, took an age as his pager kept going off and i was left time and time again. He apologised.
I was taken back to the dayroom and at 6.30pm I asked for something to eat. I was given lukewarm soup and a sandwich and chopped peaches. I was then told to go to my room. I had 2 heavy bags and my coat and I had to carry them myself. I got In the room at 6.50pm. I cried my eyes out.

I was told to be back in the "dayroom" for 7.30am and I was left there until just before 10am when I was told I now had a bed on the ward as the Anaesthitist had advised on me having a pre-med as I was so stressed! That was the beginning of one of the worst times of my life. I don't want to say too much more as I will be putting In a complaint. I was told I would have a wee nic on the side of my neck and when the dressing was removed I had a 2 & 3/4" slice round my throat with 7 staples In.

I am grateful to the surgeon and those who helped me but as for the rest. I am disgusted. I still have not recieved the Information booklet you are supposed to get when first going In. The people In the room downstairs were lovely but I felt so out of place as they all had Cancer and I felt I was In no position to complain at all. I have not been told how my op went! I have not been told why It took 4 hours Instead of 2! To anyone going In to hospital, I am sorry, I don't mean to scare anyone but please use this advice. Be outspoken. Demand answers. Don't be Ignored and left. I appreciate they are busy but where on earth Is the care? I am just starting to get my head clearer from It all and have almost managed to stop the tears when telling the story. We have to be In these places to get treated, so please, please don't treat us as just a number. We are very real. Take Care Back Soon. Love Pam.xx

I Got My Date!

Hello Everyone, Happy New Year! Hope you are all well. I got my date through for my operation. I go In to Hospital on the 2nd of February to the Admissions ward and get several tests done then get the op on the 3rd. On recieving the letter I phoned them to let them know I would be available on that date and then I asked the lady some questions about It all. I thought I would be In maybe overnight or even out the same day but I was told I will be in for a few days. I have to go to my nearest city hospital to get this procedure done and while this is a good hospital, It means I will be left on my own as It Is almost Impossible for people to park there so I will just have to be exceptionally brave.

I have been utterly petrified at the thought of this op, especially the anaesthetic, but I so desperately need to be able to stop this constant pain In my arm. I have had almost all of my time taken time taken up with this awful weather. As A Support Worker I have to walk In my job anyway so no time off for me! In fact with all the clearing of paths and shopping lists for the elderly neighbours around me, I have been totally shattered! It made me feel good to know I could help a little and make a difference. I will post again when I am able. Please keep me In your prayers. Take Care, Back Soon. Love Pam. xx

HOPE & POSITIVITY

Hello Everyone, Hope you are all well. I have been away while again and not had a chance to catch up with you all. I got my appointment through for the big hospital and travelled a good distance to see the Consultant. the whole visit lasted 10 mins!!. I have been feeling rather strange since then but I am quite sure It Is all normal reactions.
He said It was very clear on my M.R.I. that one of my discs In my spine has slipped and he Is almost certain that this Is what has been causing my arm pain. Fabulous to have an answer but a cure? Hmmm not quite as Fabby. I need an operation and was asked If I would be free between xmas and new year to which I answered very bravely yes!
I have had many things running through my mind, the anaesthetic Itself has had me freaked and obviously the thought of any mistakes! One wrong move and I am paralysed! I have named my entry Hope & Positivity because I need to hold on to both of these goodies! lol. My 40th Is on the 19th Jan and I really want to be okay for then.
I keep reminding myself that there are loads of people so much worse off than me. I have almost all Xmas Presents bought and wrapped, only a few bits and pieces. I am determined to try my best to enjoy the big day Itself. My Mister Man Is fine, The bike Is all tucked up for the Winter and My Little Treasure Is still every Inch the model Teenager!I will be back as soon as I can. I send you all Best Wishes and every happiness for a Fabulous Xmas and Fantastic 2010. Take Care, Back Soon, Love Pam.xx

Not Quite Right!

Hello Everyone. I was just thinking back to my very first entry Saturday Night Glass In Hand! and have really felt I have come a long way. I am not sure If, however, this Is such a good way!. Having an 'off' day today I think! I went for my hospital appointment on Thursday and have been a bit dazed and even dopey since then. I was seeing the Rheumatologist who turned out to be lovely. I was so sure I would be In and out her wee room and be told It was the Bulging Disc In my neck causing all the problems, that I went by myself. Silly mistake!

After an examination I listened Intently as she started going through the possibilities of what was wrong with me. I have to get several more tests to confirm one of them. Psoriatic Arthritis was the 1st on the list. I was to leave her room and go and get bloods done and x- rays of my hands and feet, then go to the pharmacy to get stronger medicine. The next possibility was Carpel Tunnel Syndrome. I heard the words mri scan to be arranged for my left hand and an appointment with a podiatrist and O.T. to get splints for my hands at night! There would be an appointment made for me to see a nerve specialist, this will be In the same department as the 1st specialist I am waiting to go see but this person will do something different!

I forced myself to try and remember as much as possible of what was being said to me as I sat there with my head spinning. I asked If this could not all be because of my neck ad was told no. So, there I was lost, after leaving her wee romm, now wandering the hospital armed with all this stuff to go to all the different places and I felt very alone and really scared and very sore where she had examined my arm and had lifted It high to the side.

I held In the tears and clutched my 'Yours' Magazine. I sat In the room waiting on the phlebotomist to come take my blood and I flicked through the pages and found Janes' story. I looked at the pictures and was just about to flood the ward when I was taken! I decided It best to wait until Home before looking at anything else. Jane, I felt you beside me In that hospital along with your strength and determination. If you are selling any I'm first in the queue!!

I don't know what will happen to me now. My hands and feet are failing me and I am 39. yes I am feeling a wee bit sorry for myself today, a wee bit annoyed and even more so, I am frustrated, as I don't know what my future will hold, but I do know one thing, At the moment I HAVE a future come what may and for that I am very grateful. I will have my tears and get them out the way and then get ready to tackle this as best as I can. Apologies for not getting round your journals. I am here and will keep posting when I can. If ever anyone needs me, mail me at classdiamond@aol.com, If I can help at all, I will certainly do my best. Take Care, Back Soon, Love Pam. xx

Almost the Big 4-Oh!

Hello Everyone, I just want to firstly say 'Lisa, Get well soon, I am thinking of you'. Isn't It funny how nobody mentions all the rotten Illnesses we all seem to get when we reach a certain milestone! I am now just 4 months away from that scary pair of numbers. The dreaded big 4-0h! lol. Funny though, that you can be put through such an emotional rollercoaster at the 'fear' factor In everything and still carry on as normal at the other side of It all! I have worried myself sick over the silliest of things and panicked at the silliest too. Grey hair? och so what! I have been dying my hair for years, surprised I still have hair to worry about! Then the ' No more kids moments' Am I mad? I have a Teenager!!!!!! Then the retirement worry of being poor? Hey... I've always been poor! so that won't make a difference.

I have, and continue to battle with my self conscience on a daily basis about silly worries. Apparently this Is normal when approaching middle age! I have the 'Regret' pangs too like why wasn't I a Millionaire Winner? then I could have fullfilled my wishes to all my friends to help them. I know and believe that there is a reason for everything, (would like to haggle with the big man up there about the last one though! lol.) I feel I have had a wee test of endurance of late and have managed to stay relatively sane! I had a wonderful reprieve from the Bowen therapy treatment but unfortuanely It was short lived. My mri showed a Bulging Disc In my neck which Is pinching a nerve causing the constant pain In my left arm. My back and neck feel strange and sore and at times I was ready to throw in the towel. I have been signed off work for a few weeks, taking It easy and I must admit sitting still, filled with painkillers really helps!

I have to get a brain scan this Friday which I am dreading. I hate anything like that! I just hope they find my brain! lol. I am going back to work next week. My boss has been great and I will be taking It very easy. I am like a caged animal In this house! displaying 'snappy croc' & 'Growly Bear' syndrome!! lol. Pain has a way of dragging you through all your emotions and making you address them all at the one time!. I had 3 days In a row of almost pain free moments which was fabulous. I get up with Pins and needles in my hands and feet and then the joint pain in my fingers on my left hand slowly starts. I will be seeing a neurologist and a rheumatologist very soon. Need to rule out Arthritis. As for the Bulging Disc? I have read up on It and It could be special excercises or surgery. It has been some experience though. Hopefully I can be repaired! lol. Anyway I will quit moaning because that is all thats wrong with me. I am very grateful for that. To everyone experiencing constant pain, my heart goes out to you. May you find a way to ease this burden. On a happier note we have a new addition to our family In the form of... wait for it.... a Hamster!!!

My nephew asked If we could rehome her as his friend needed her to go asap. I, of course In all my wisdom said yes! I have 3 cats and of course I said yes! My daughter now has Rambo in her room. yes you read that bit right, they called this cute adorable little Girl 'Rambo'! We have had several hamsters before and I have Introduced them to the cats, who get a stern talking to at the meeting about how this Is the 'baby' and how they are not to go near! They have all met rambo now and have given me filthy looks as If to say 'oh no, not another one!' lol, I could never trust them alone with a hamster though, so It Is back to strict rules. Obsessive Closed Door sydrome! lol. Right, I have surely almost written a novel so I will go now and get some breakfast. Take Care, Back Soon. Love Pam. xx

Feeling Guilty

Hello everyone. I am so sorry for being away so long. I know i wrote that at the beginning of the last entry but It Is truly sincere...again! lol. Where have I been? California?..No. Australia?..No. In fact I haven't been anywhere. Just here working away trying to find a way to boost my Income has been my project for a wee while now. I decided to start looking Into Ebay & have now started selling bits & bobs. Mainly Clothes Bundles. I have been very busy listing the Items & taking pictures etc. What a buzz when somebody bids on one of your Items! I found myself almost falling off my seat, squealing with excitement when I got a 99p bid!. lol. I have almost calmed down a bit now!!!. Anyone wanting a wee peek at my Items will need to email me for details. (hint hint) lol.

My story that I was writing was put on the back burner for a bit, as I stupidly took a couple of negative comments to heart and felt like I was wasting my time. I know that I will go back to It when the time is right. I have another exciting project In the pipeline & hope to be sharing that soon too. I was off work recently for a month, with what seemed to be a trapped nerve in my neck, which caused terrible pain in my left arm. I Thought I was having a stroke! Got a rather large fright that day, I tell you. I was in hospital for the day only which was good. My B.P. was through the roof!. I went to see my good friend the week after and I secretly knew she would fix me, as she Is a Bowen Therapist. Miracle Worker In my eyes. Please look Into the concept for an alternitive pain reliever. Especially anyone experiencing constant pain.

My Family are all okay. Mister Man Is away on a bike tour today so I am enjoying eating chocolate and not having to make coffee every 5 mins! lol. My wee treasure is fine. I haven't nailed her ears to the wall yet....(Teenager! remember? lol) My 'Bairns' are all fine. Oscar is sound asleep, quite possible full up from eating half my plant!, G has fallen In love with my new (luxury kinda expensive)bed set and now thinks he Is a Lord! & Purdie Is an old lady ... when it suits her, usually during the day, at night she becomes a wild cat/kitten racing round the house having a total carry on!. I wrote my title for today's entry after a little thought. I do feel guilty at not being on here more and for not being here to support my friends more. For Jane ( A journey of another kind.... ) & Mort (caring and sharing) & all you others battling away, I am always here If you need me. A special message For Val, Joann, Lisa, & Guido for nudging me along to come back here again... Thank You. I must now, however go and start cooking that dinner before Mister Man arrives. There Is nothing quite like the smell of a Roast Sunday dinner wafting through the house, Let's hope I remember the oven! lol. Take Care, Back Soon. xx

One Happy Birthday Girl

Well. Hello Everyone. Its me at last! I hope you have all had a fabulous New year so far. For anyone that I didn't send an email to wishing them well, I apologize and am sorry for being away for so long.
I took a mad turn and decided to write a book! lol. I have taken a breather to pop on here and say hello and share my happy day. I know a lady should never say her age but I am cool about it....I think!!! lol. 39 today and It has been such a great day. Next year will be a different story! lol.

I got lovely cards and brilliant presents. Mister man was a superstar making me a cooked breakfast and Roast Dinner for our evening meal. He bought me an mp3 player and gave me a cool book. I got loads of cool stuff like flowers and chocs and was thoroughly spoilt all day. I think this has been the best birthday in many years. I am looking forward to a busy day tomorrow at work as I will be jigging along the pavement, singing, looking like a right plonker!! lol. Hope you are all well in your wee worlds. Miss you all. My babies are doing fine. G is growing by the day and no longer goes out all night. The weather doesn't agree with him so he swings on the front door handle after a couple of hours outside!!! We now put him out at 9pm.

Oscar is still the sookiest baby going and loves his mama. Purdie is ageing graciously and sleeps quite a lot, when she is awake the other 2 know their place! she also soon wakens right up if there is a can of tuna opened! lol. Wee treasure is doing well at school. We are having to do excercises twice a day for her ankle and were told the other day that it will be a minimum of 6 months before we see a difference. A badly fallen arch needs corrected. Trying to get a teenager to do anything is so hard!! lol. I am laying down the law on this one as, her walking properly is a priority. loads of arguments especially about footwear go on in this house. I am surprised you don't all hear us! lol.

Mister man has chilled out somewhat and has turned his attention to motorbikes. I, too share this passion so we are definitely on the same wavelength. I think that is you all brought up to speed on the latest adventures in my world. Must go and do a wee quiz now on king.com before my bath It's so addictive, I love it! Take Care, Back Soon. xx

Merry Christmas Everyone

Hello everyone. It's hard to believe that Christmas is here once more. I have been flat out. Work has been rather pre-occupying. I had a wee problem with a lack of hours and felt quite panicky. Working some relief hours in the local nursing home has been a godsend. I am trying to finish off the last minute bits and pieces. I have been away from here for ages and have missed it. I miss catching up with all of you. I was shocked to hear about my fav other man Mort and so pleased to hear a happy outcome. Thanks for the txts Mort. sad to notice more losses in J-Land. This time of year is especially hard when we lose people or suffer hardships or ill health, so, to those in that position, I hold you all that little bit closer and will say a wee prayer for you all.

Took a mad turn yesterday and went to Marks and Spencers to buy the both sets of parents a gift, now for those of you who are not familiar with that store, may I just tell you that It is rather more expensive than the others. Good quality though. Not a place I frequent!! lol. So there I was absolutely shattered, wandering aimlessly around M&S searching for 2 gifts. I eyed up the hampers but at £50 each, I found that way over my budget. I was told by the lady that they could make them up with Items I choose and they would wrap them up and add a bright red or gold bow. The baskets were £10 on their own so I declined, as I would never ever pay a tenner for an empty basket! lol. I chose x2 canvas bags and chose my goodies like christmas cake and yule log and chocs etc. They looked amazing when they were wrapped and I am glad i got them, I just hope they all like them.

I don't have to worry about my wee treasure as Santa brings all hers!! Hmmm. What a wonderful man he is. I will duly write my note to him and make sure I put it somewhere he will definately see it! lol. I must go and grab a coffee and lay out work clothes for tomorrow. I will get round to reading your journals just as soon as I can. Feel free to email me. I hope you all have a spectacular Christmas and New Year. Be Happy. Love and Best Wishes to you all. Take Care, Back Soon. xx

A New Award

Thank you Missie for this great award. I always smile when I get one of those! A real confidence boost. It Is now down to me to pass this along to 7 worthy recipients. I had no problem in naming 7, I could have named so many more and I am sure that If you don't have one, then you will, very soon. Thank you again Missie. xx

Here are the rules:-
1. Please put the logo on your journal - Real People - Real Blogs.
2. Place a link from the person, from whom you received the award.
3. Nominate at least 7 if you can.
4. Put the links of those on your journal.
5. Leave a message on their journal to let them know.
6. Put the award on your sidebar/journal.

Here are my 7:

Mort: Caring and Sharing

Yasmin: Isn't She Great

Jane: A Journey of Another Kind

Lisa: Life on A Bison Farm

Val: There Is A Season

Betty: A Corgi in Southern California

Jenny: No Pleasure Cruise

I will hopefully get a chance to visit journals in the next few days. Take care, Back Soon. xx

Wee Treasure has Crutches

Hello everyone,

After checking my wee treasure's ankle on Monday, I decided to take her to the Accident and Emergency department of our local hospital to get it checked out further and thankfully it is not broken, only very badly sprained. It was very fast from beginning to end which was brilliant. I had to get a taxi both ways which proved rather costly! luckily I had put some Christmas money aside which was good,

They gave her crutches after putting on a bandage and sent us on our way. I had a wee sleep when we got home, think it helped. I had parents evening at the school last night. Mister man and I arrived on the motorbike which turned a few heads! It didn't help that he was whizzing around in all the nooks and crannies of the playground reliving his youth as he "could get away with it now!" lol. Boys will be boys. I gave him a rather dirty look when I got off the back and after stifling giggles we went in to the main hall.

There was a noticeboard on the wall with all the seating arrangements for the teachers which we were to study and find our way from, and I was then instantly happy I wasn't trying to find my way myself! I could see devilment in mister mans eyes when we sat down as he said he had an idea and scuttled off, only to return with the 2 sheets of paper off the main board!!! I shook my head as I listened to him saying "This will make it much easier to find these teachers!" lol. I bet it would! Shame for everyone else tho!

We had 6 to get through and all were positive apart from English which almost had us falling off our seats. The teacher said she couldn't see our wee treasure doing her Foundation exam which is the main one for all. Thankfully she went on to say she wanted her to go for credit, which is the highest! Wow! One very proud mama I can tell you and her dad was speechless. We were really impressed. Clever girl. We exchanged the old verbal war of words......"she takes after me......no,no she takes after me"! lol. It doesn't matter to us what path she chooses in life, we will be right behind her every step of the way. Take Care, Back Soon. xx

Thank You J-Landers

Hello everyone. I am delighted to have just received an email from Val telling me I have won Sentence of the week again. Wow! Thank you so much. I just adore this wee game and missed it terribly when I was offline. After such a hard time of it lately, this is just the tonic to put a smile back on my gloomy chops! lol.

I have been working non stop straight through and only managed to really relax for a few hours this weekend. My wee treasure went over on her ankle earlier today and had me runnning around daft getting her comfortable. Poor wee sausage, it is such a painful thing doing that. I will make sure she gets plenty of rest.

I will hopefully get round to reading more journals soon and catch up on what everybody has been up to. I am still finding my way round and found it rather frustrating to keep being booted off line whenever I tried to add a picture!. Hmmm, most infuriating!. Anyway, I will get there in the end, I am sure. I will go now and check on my wee treasure. Thank you for giving me the honour of being a winner again. I am thrilled. Take Care, Back Soon. xx

Swings and Roundabouts

Hello everyone, I have had a rather rotten time of it lately, hence the delay in posting any new entries. I lost one of my clients to a sudden death and I was shocked to the core. I spent a whole day crying constantly trying to get my head round the sad news. A beautiful lady with such a wonderful outlook on life. I decided to go to the funeral. I felt very alone as I walked into the church hoping to slip into the back seats and was totally taken aback at the packed church!.

I have never seen anything like it before. that spoke volumes to me about the lady I had been caring for on a daily basis. The service was beautiful. Very funny in parts. I held it together by singing as loud as i could and praising myself inwardly. I decided against the next part and slowly walked home feeling very strange. You know that when someone is poorly, you go on the journey with that person. On this particular occassion it was so unexpected and it will take me a wee while to get back on my feet properly. I will never forget her and keep our laughter together very close to me.

On the afternoon that I was told the sad news, I also had my 12 week appraisal with my boss. I got some good advice from her on coping with greif and was thrilled to be told, I had been given brilliant feedback from my clients and I had definately passed with flying colours. I was given my new blue uniform and a cosy winter fleece, An amazing moment was tainted with such sadness as I wanted to tell my lady my good news and of course show her my uniform. I do, though,talk to her and have done so,every day and I am sure if one more person in the street catches me talking to myself, I will surely be carted off! lol.

So, life for me at the moment is all swings and roundabouts. One blink and everything can change. I raise my coffee to my lovely lady and know in my heart she is doing just fine. Take Care, Back Soon. xx

I Made It! Lol

Hello all my lovely fellow J-Landers. I am here at last! lol. With 40 mins to go before time up, I managed to stay online long enough to transfer here. Mind now, I have no Idea what on earth I am doing or where to start but I am sure with a little perseverance, I will get there.

How are you all doing? I felt so lost without you all and was really panicking last night when the screen kept freezing and I kept getting put through to technical support to be told the same thing over and over! lol. Grrr. I knew It wasn't a technical problem and after many hours and countless telephone calls I finally had my cross voice and voiced my frustrations.

Result? 20 mins later I was back online. A clerical error had cost me all that stress. Uninstalled and re-installed aol 4 times! Put a new filter on, which had me lying flat on the floor rather stuck! lol! Oh well. At least I can laugh about It now. It's good to moan. I am so pleased to be here, wherever It Is that I am! lol. I will go for a wee wander and work out what on earth I am meant to be doing and hopefully get round to hearing from you all asap.

Take Care Back Soon. xx

Cutting It Fine! Lol.

Hello everyone,

I am so sorry for being away for so long. I have had some carry on, but I've made It back in time for one last entry in my journal. I have missed  you all so much. Please email me all the places that your new journals will be at. Can't believe we are losing this. It was my fav place to go. We should all find a mutual meeting place and catch up with one another.

I have thought about you all since being away and my fav other man Morton has kept me up to date. Mort you are a star, Thank You. xx.  I have settled in to my new job as a Home Care Attendant now and I love It. I have quite a few characters to go to as you can well Imagine!! lol. I have been helping out in the local nursing home aswell, which has been brilliant. I did that job 20 years ago, Gosh where does the time go eh? lol.

On the downside of being away I almost lost my mum and I was terrified. I am so pleased to say she Is absolutely fine now and I am keeping a close eye on her. My dad Is fine too. I spent the weekend there with my wee treasure singing along to the Singstar game. I reckon I am not too bad but my wee lambchop puts me to shame!! lol. I get a score of 7 or 8 thousand but madam gets 9 thousand! Hmmmm she ges It from me you know! lol.

G, Oscar and purdie are all fine. G decided to take a mad turn at 6.35am and launch himself on lamchops bed! I had a good laugh In the kitchen making my cuppa listening to the squeals!! lol Oh I'm bad!  I just ate soft fudge sweets that were erm... yukky!  Need to remember to stock up on the choc! lol. Weight wise things have been rather successful. I was a size 22 in clothes and now I am pleased to say I am buying new jeans in the next couple of weeks........Drum Roll Please......lol ... size 14.  Yay! Walking folks, thats the secret, walking. I could have cried In the beginning In fact I did cry, and pant n puff, and curse! lol but I persisted. ;-)

Right I think It's time for me to sign off now as I've been waffling for a while. Great to be back folks. I won't say goodbye, just farewell till our paths cross again soon.Take Care, Love Pam xx

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Taking A Break

Hello everyone, I am taking a wee break from my Journal for a week or 2. I have a lot of stuff to sort out and desperately need to get something sorted out work wise. I will be popping online as I need to check out the new vacancies posted, and enter sentence of the week! lol, so If anybody needs me, or wants me to see something then, Please just send me an email.

I will feel strange turning off my alerts but I really need to spend this time focussing on a better future, which means I will be really knuckling down looking for work and getting fit. I have discovered a channel on sky 288. It is simply wonderful. It's all about Balance and helping to get a better body and lifestyle. I especially like Kundilini Yoga with Maya Fiennes, which I have tried and must say, I absolutely love to bits. It Is so relaxing and theraputic and has done wonders for my back and my mind.

I am still walking an awful lot, so between the two, I am feeling really good at the moment. I reccommend It to anyone. I also have my garden to tackle over the next couple of weeks, I should lose at least a stone doing that!! lol. I left the house the other night to go to the shop and as I stepped down the outside steps this enormous dark maroon coloured frog/toad thingy leapt up In front of me! lol. I almost fell back through the door. Once I had shouted my wee treasure down to witness the beastie, It leapt Into the garden/Jungle! lol.

I will have to do a sweeping brush search before I get the strimmer out! It may take some time!! lol. I can still hear my adoreable daughter laughing at the state of me. I also want to spend some time with my little  monster! lol. I need to prise her away from the T.V. ER,  One Tree Hill and Big Brother are a permanent fixture In this house! lol. So all my lovely darlings, I will Love you and leave you now with some Kundilini as a wee taster. Take Care of you all and I will see you all real soon. xx

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Weekly Sentence #20

Click here to play:  Weekly Sentence 

Each Week Val will give you a set of six letters.  A sentence
must be made from these letters.  The letters today are:-SCWTST

An example of a sentence could be - Six cows waded through sea tides .These letters MAY 

 NOT be re-arranged.

SCWTST

Here Is Mine:

 Saucy Charlotte Whispered 'Tonight' Sweet Tiger.

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