Almost 40!

Welcoming A New Blogger.

2011-04-07T12:11:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone, I am finally back!. I am sorry to have been away for so long. I hope you have all been keeping well and look forward to catching up with you all. Today has been quite a special day as I am so pleased to be Introducing someone new to the world of blogging ..... Drum Roll ..... none other than ..... My Dad!! At the young age of 80, he has now started his own blog!! lol. I honestly take my hat off to him for all the remarkable things he does at his age. I guided a little bit with the template and hope you will all help by stopping by and saying hello, as I know he would be thrilled with any comments and tips!! He has his second book going on sale shortly and will be more than happy to chat about this or any other topics. I hope he does not want to take up hand gliding next as I am scared of heights!! lol. Take Care, Back Soon, Love Pam.xx You can find his new blog here http://lastofthehardhatdivers.blogspot.com/

Farewell My Friend

2010-05-30T12:50:00.000-07:00

Dear Jane,
I have never been at a loss so much for words in my entire life, as i am right now. I can't see my screen properly for tears as i try to type. I was told just moments ago that you are now with the Angels. Oh Jane, I feel like a piece of my heart has broken. You have been my friend for such a long time now and i am devastated that you have gone. I am going to miss you so much. I see quite a lot in my job and deal with a lot of different types of poorly people, but you are so very different Jane, You truly are One in a Million. You started your journey with courage, strength, dignity, and mountains of humour and kept all of these things going throughout. I don't know how you managed to do that.

I would be reading one of your stories in tears one minute and the next few seconds later, be in stitches. What a fabulous, funny and amazingly beautiful lady you are and always will be. I will keep you in my memories until the day i see you again. Thank you for not only being my friend but by sharing your story, you have helped others to overcome many obstacles. There is no more suffering with pain for you now and i am so thankful for that. I know how much Martin and the family meant to you, you always made me feel like a welcome friend reading your stories and I am keeping them in my thoughts and prayers.

I used to finish speaking to you by saying i would hold you close and today will be no exception. I love you so much and always will my brave, brave friend, keeping you close as usual. Rest In Peace Jane. All my Love, Pam. xx

Last Of The Hard Hat Divers By Bob Sinclair

2010-05-01T08:25:00.000-07:00

Hello Everyone. I hope you are all well. I have set up a Facebook Page for my dads' new book now and hope that you can all show some support for him there.
Please Become a Friend and like this page and tell your friends too. We are trying to raise the profile of my 79 year old dads' 1st book called Last Of The Hard Hat Divers.

This book is filled with a large slice of unreported history, filled also with humour to make you laugh aloud, filled at times with the pathos of tragedy that might make you weep.
It tells in detail how German Bombers almost killed him in WW2. How a diver was able to get drunk on Whisky on the sea bed!.

How a British Submarine was lost with all hands due to human error and not enemy action. How his father escaped death a few times as a Merchant Seaman and as a Salvage Man and how an uncle survived most of the war in a Prison Camp. A book that demands attention to the follies of mankind.

"Lest We Forget".

Take Care, Back Soon. Love Pam.xx

Last Of The Hard Hat Divers by Bob Sinclair

2010-04-23T10:59:00.000-07:00

Hello Everyone. I hope you are all well. I have been recuperating at home and I am almost back to my old self... Pain Free! It has been such a long time and I am so grateful that the Operation was a success. I have put my horrible hospital experience behind me now and I am hoping to get back to work very soon which will be great. It will be 12 weeks In total that I will have been off for!!! To say I have been going a bit stir crazy is a bit of an understatement!! lol.

I can Imagine that there will be a few of you reading the title of my entry and wondering what on earth I am on about. Well this is the bit that makes me smile and forget all the bad stuff. The title is the name of a Book called "Last Of The Hard Hat Divers" written by none other than.....wait for it.... My Dad!!!. At the Grand old age of 79!!!, he now has his book on Amazon for sale from the 1st of June. I am so Proud of him, as are all of us In my family. The book Is about my dads' experiences' as a Deep Sea Diver and the stories are brilliant. After hearing him tell me a few of them one morning In his kitchen, I told him to go for It and write them down and to my absolute delight. He truly did! lol. The Picture on the front of the book Is my dad (The one on the right Grinning like a cheshire cat!! lol) and his friend Martin.

Some bits are so funny they leave you In stitches while others are much more serious where It Is like he Is In a Real life C.S.I. with him having to dive Into deep waters to recover bodies!!. I will be spending an awful lot of time doing my very best to leave links on diving pages etc. and I will do my very best to promote his book. I thought It was quite unique having a dad that used to be a deep sea diver! but now I think It's astounding that I have a dad that now has his own book for sale! Way to go Dad.

If anyone Is Interested or knows of anyone that would be Interested In this Book, Please help by using/forwarding this link. Last Of The Hard Hat Divers Any help to promote this book In any way will be greatly appreciated by myself and of course my dad! lol. ...........Right, I must fly, Need to make my This Man famous!!!! Take Care, Back Soon, Love Pam. xx

Hospital Hell

2010-02-13T03:46:00.000-08:00

Hello Everyone. I hope you are all well. I want to say a Massive Thank You to My Fav other man.... Morton for updating people on my situation. Thank you for my lovely messages of support. I got home on Friday 5th of Feb and have been so pleased to away from the hospital. I totally sympathise with you Mort and feel very angry towards our so called "care".
I phoned at 7am as requested on the sheet to make sure there was a bed for me as I was so far away. This was not my local hospital and I was asked to to this check on the day I was due to go in. The woman told me to come to a specific ward and I would be given my bed. There was a wee hiccup with travel arrangements and Mr Man and I had to get the bus, which was a little stressful but okay.

We arrived for 11am as requested and the nurse asked us to go in to the dayroom, which was an extremely small room with hardly any seats, a T.V., and a sprinkle of books and wait. Another nurse came in and took my name and date of birth and said she too would be back in 5 mins with information about where I was to go. I waited and waited and was becoming very anxious as Mr man had to be making a move to get back home for our daughter and the weather was playing havoc. More snow!! We were given a cuppa and a sandwich after somebody asked from the room! At 2.15pm I was asked to go Into a room to be admitted! I had my blood pressure taken and was given water whilst a slightly panicked nurse kept repeating how high It was! Not helping my situation.

I was then asked to go back and wait in the room until a bed was available as there weren't any! I sadly kissed goodbye to my man and was left alone In a tiny room freaking out about the impending op. At 3.45 I was told I would be put In a room 2 floors down In a hostel which was still In the hospital, just miles away along a gigantic corridor, but that I wouldn't be able to contact any nurses etc as there wasnt any there!! I was given the wards phone number and told to put It In my mobile phone and call If there were any problems.
I don't think on looking back I was believing what was happening. I just had to do what they said.

I was shown the room and told to go to the dayroom In there and speak to the people at night as they would be nice! I was then taken back up the stairs to the dayroom! and left once again. A doctor came and on what shouldve been a routine exam, took an age as his pager kept going off and i was left time and time again. He apologised.
I was taken back to the dayroom and at 6.30pm I asked for something to eat. I was given lukewarm soup and a sandwich and chopped peaches. I was then told to go to my room. I had 2 heavy bags and my coat and I had to carry them myself. I got In the room at 6.50pm. I cried my eyes out.

I was told to be back in the "dayroom" for 7.30am and I was left there until just before 10am when I was told I now had a bed on the ward as the Anaesthitist had advised on me having a pre-med as I was so stressed! That was the beginning of one of the worst times of my life. I don't want to say too much more as I will be putting In a complaint. I was told I would have a wee nic on the side of my neck and when the dressing was removed I had a 2 & 3/4" slice round my throat with 7 staples In.

I am grateful to the surgeon and those who helped me but as for the rest. I am disgusted. I still have not recieved the Information booklet you are supposed to get when first going In. The people In the room downstairs were lovely but I felt so out of place as they all had Cancer and I felt I was In no position to complain at all. I have not been told how my op went! I have not been told why It took 4 hours Instead of 2! To anyone going In to hospital, I am sorry, I don't mean to scare anyone but please use this advice. Be outspoken. Demand answers. Don't be Ignored and left. I appreciate they are busy but where on earth Is the care? I am just starting to get my head clearer from It all and have almost managed to stop the tears when telling the story. We have to be In these places to get treated, so please, please don't treat us as just a number. We are very real. Take Care Back Soon. Love Pam.xx

I Got My Date!

2010-01-08T08:36:00.000-08:00

Hello Everyone, Happy New Year! Hope you are all well. I got my date through for my operation. I go In to Hospital on the 2nd of February to the Admissions ward and get several tests done then get the op on the 3rd. On recieving the letter I phoned them to let them know I would be available on that date and then I asked the lady some questions about It all. I thought I would be In maybe overnight or even out the same day but I was told I will be in for a few days. I have to go to my nearest city hospital to get this procedure done and while this is a good hospital, It means I will be left on my own as It Is almost Impossible for people to park there so I will just have to be exceptionally brave.

I have been utterly petrified at the thought of this op, especially the anaesthetic, but I so desperately need to be able to stop this constant pain In my arm. I have had almost all of my time taken time taken up with this awful weather. As A Support Worker I have to walk In my job anyway so no time off for me! In fact with all the clearing of paths and shopping lists for the elderly neighbours around me, I have been totally shattered! It made me feel good to know I could help a little and make a difference. I will post again when I am able. Please keep me In your prayers. Take Care, Back Soon. Love Pam. xx

HOPE & POSITIVITY

2009-12-18T12:15:00.000-08:00

Hello Everyone, Hope you are all well. I have been away while again and not had a chance to catch up with you all. I got my appointment through for the big hospital and travelled a good distance to see the Consultant. the whole visit lasted 10 mins!!. I have been feeling rather strange since then but I am quite sure It Is all normal reactions.
He said It was very clear on my M.R.I. that one of my discs In my spine has slipped and he Is almost certain that this Is what has been causing my arm pain. Fabulous to have an answer but a cure? Hmmm not quite as Fabby. I need an operation and was asked If I would be free between xmas and new year to which I answered very bravely yes!
I have had many things running through my mind, the anaesthetic Itself has had me freaked and obviously the thought of any mistakes! One wrong move and I am paralysed! I have named my entry Hope & Positivity because I need to hold on to both of these goodies! lol. My 40th Is on the 19th Jan and I really want to be okay for then.
I keep reminding myself that there are loads of people so much worse off than me. I have almost all Xmas Presents bought and wrapped, only a few bits and pieces. I am determined to try my best to enjoy the big day Itself. My Mister Man Is fine, The bike Is all tucked up for the Winter and My Little Treasure Is still every Inch the model Teenager!I will be back as soon as I can. I send you all Best Wishes and every happiness for a Fabulous Xmas and Fantastic 2010. Take Care, Back Soon, Love Pam.xx

Not Quite Right!

2009-11-07T09:45:00.000-08:00

Hello Everyone. I was just thinking back to my very first entry Saturday Night Glass In Hand! and have really felt I have come a long way. I am not sure If, however, this Is such a good way!. Having an 'off' day today I think! I went for my hospital appointment on Thursday and have been a bit dazed and even dopey since then. I was seeing the Rheumatologist who turned out to be lovely. I was so sure I would be In and out her wee room and be told It was the Bulging Disc In my neck causing all the problems, that I went by myself. Silly mistake!

After an examination I listened Intently as she started going through the possibilities of what was wrong with me. I have to get several more tests to confirm one of them. Psoriatic Arthritis was the 1st on the list. I was to leave her room and go and get bloods done and x- rays of my hands and feet, then go to the pharmacy to get stronger medicine. The next possibility was Carpel Tunnel Syndrome. I heard the words mri scan to be arranged for my left hand and an appointment with a podiatrist and O.T. to get splints for my hands at night! There would be an appointment made for me to see a nerve specialist, this will be In the same department as the 1st specialist I am waiting to go see but this person will do something different!

I forced myself to try and remember as much as possible of what was being said to me as I sat there with my head spinning. I asked If this could not all be because of my neck ad was told no. So, there I was lost, after leaving her wee romm, now wandering the hospital armed with all this stuff to go to all the different places and I felt very alone and really scared and very sore where she had examined my arm and had lifted It high to the side.

I held In the tears and clutched my 'Yours' Magazine. I sat In the room waiting on the phlebotomist to come take my blood and I flicked through the pages and found Janes' story. I looked at the pictures and was just about to flood the ward when I was taken! I decided It best to wait until Home before looking at anything else. Jane, I felt you beside me In that hospital along with your strength and determination. If you are selling any I'm first in the queue!!

I don't know what will happen to me now. My hands and feet are failing me and I am 39. yes I am feeling a wee bit sorry for myself today, a wee bit annoyed and even more so, I am frustrated, as I don't know what my future will hold, but I do know one thing, At the moment I HAVE a future come what may and for that I am very grateful. I will have my tears and get them out the way and then get ready to tackle this as best as I can. Apologies for not getting round your journals. I am here and will keep posting when I can. If ever anyone needs me, mail me at classdiamond@aol.com, If I can help at all, I will certainly do my best. Take Care, Back Soon, Love Pam. xx

Almost the Big 4-Oh!

2009-09-30T02:48:00.000-07:00

Hello Everyone, I just want to firstly say 'Lisa, Get well soon, I am thinking of you'. Isn't It funny how nobody mentions all the rotten Illnesses we all seem to get when we reach a certain milestone! I am now just 4 months away from that scary pair of numbers. The dreaded big 4-0h! lol. Funny though, that you can be put through such an emotional rollercoaster at the 'fear' factor In everything and still carry on as normal at the other side of It all! I have worried myself sick over the silliest of things and panicked at the silliest too. Grey hair? och so what! I have been dying my hair for years, surprised I still have hair to worry about! Then the ' No more kids moments' Am I mad? I have a Teenager!!!!!! Then the retirement worry of being poor? Hey... I've always been poor! so that won't make a difference.

I have, and continue to battle with my self conscience on a daily basis about silly worries. Apparently this Is normal when approaching middle age! I have the 'Regret' pangs too like why wasn't I a Millionaire Winner? then I could have fullfilled my wishes to all my friends to help them. I know and believe that there is a reason for everything, (would like to haggle with the big man up there about the last one though! lol.) I feel I have had a wee test of endurance of late and have managed to stay relatively sane! I had a wonderful reprieve from the Bowen therapy treatment but unfortuanely It was short lived. My mri showed a Bulging Disc In my neck which Is pinching a nerve causing the constant pain In my left arm. My back and neck feel strange and sore and at times I was ready to throw in the towel. I have been signed off work for a few weeks, taking It easy and I must admit sitting still, filled with painkillers really helps!

I have to get a brain scan this Friday which I am dreading. I hate anything like that! I just hope they find my brain! lol. I am going back to work next week. My boss has been great and I will be taking It very easy. I am like a caged animal In this house! displaying 'snappy croc' & 'Growly Bear' syndrome!! lol. Pain has a way of dragging you through all your emotions and making you address them all at the one time!. I had 3 days In a row of almost pain free moments which was fabulous. I get up with Pins and needles in my hands and feet and then the joint pain in my fingers on my left hand slowly starts. I will be seeing a neurologist and a rheumatologist very soon. Need to rule out Arthritis. As for the Bulging Disc? I have read up on It and It could be special excercises or surgery. It has been some experience though. Hopefully I can be repaired! lol. Anyway I will quit moaning because that is all thats wrong with me. I am very grateful for that. To everyone experiencing constant pain, my heart goes out to you. May you find a way to ease this burden. On a happier note we have a new addition to our family In the form of... wait for it.... a Hamster!!!

My nephew asked If we could rehome her as his friend needed her to go asap. I, of course In all my wisdom said yes! I have 3 cats and of course I said yes! My daughter now has Rambo in her room. yes you read that bit right, they called this cute adorable little Girl 'Rambo'! We have had several hamsters before and I have Introduced them to the cats, who get a stern talking to at the meeting about how this Is the 'baby' and how they are not to go near! They have all met rambo now and have given me filthy looks as If to say 'oh no, not another one!' lol, I could never trust them alone with a hamster though, so It Is back to strict rules. Obsessive Closed Door sydrome! lol. Right, I have surely almost written a novel so I will go now and get some breakfast. Take Care, Back Soon. Love Pam. xx

Feeling Guilty

2009-09-06T06:29:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone. I am so sorry for being away so long. I know i wrote that at the beginning of the last entry but It Is truly sincere...again! lol. Where have I been? California?..No. Australia?..No. In fact I haven't been anywhere. Just here working away trying to find a way to boost my Income has been my project for a wee while now. I decided to start looking Into Ebay & have now started selling bits & bobs. Mainly Clothes Bundles. I have been very busy listing the Items & taking pictures etc. What a buzz when somebody bids on one of your Items! I found myself almost falling off my seat, squealing with excitement when I got a 99p bid!. lol. I have almost calmed down a bit now!!!. Anyone wanting a wee peek at my Items will need to email me for details. (hint hint) lol.

My story that I was writing was put on the back burner for a bit, as I stupidly took a couple of negative comments to heart and felt like I was wasting my time. I know that I will go back to It when the time is right. I have another exciting project In the pipeline & hope to be sharing that soon too. I was off work recently for a month, with what seemed to be a trapped nerve in my neck, which caused terrible pain in my left arm. I Thought I was having a stroke! Got a rather large fright that day, I tell you. I was in hospital for the day only which was good. My B.P. was through the roof!. I went to see my good friend the week after and I secretly knew she would fix me, as she Is a Bowen Therapist. Miracle Worker In my eyes. Please look Into the concept for an alternitive pain reliever. Especially anyone experiencing constant pain.

My Family are all okay. Mister Man Is away on a bike tour today so I am enjoying eating chocolate and not having to make coffee every 5 mins! lol. My wee treasure is fine. I haven't nailed her ears to the wall yet....(Teenager! remember? lol) My 'Bairns' are all fine. Oscar is sound asleep, quite possible full up from eating half my plant!, G has fallen In love with my new (luxury kinda expensive)bed set and now thinks he Is a Lord! & Purdie Is an old lady ... when it suits her, usually during the day, at night she becomes a wild cat/kitten racing round the house having a total carry on!. I wrote my title for today's entry after a little thought. I do feel guilty at not being on here more and for not being here to support my friends more. For Jane ( A journey of another kind.... ) & Mort (caring and sharing) & all you others battling away, I am always here If you need me. A special message For Val, Joann, Lisa, & Guido for nudging me along to come back here again... Thank You. I must now, however go and start cooking that dinner before Mister Man arrives. There Is nothing quite like the smell of a Roast Sunday dinner wafting through the house, Let's hope I remember the oven! lol. Take Care, Back Soon. xx

One Happy Birthday Girl

2009-01-19T11:14:00.000-08:00

Well. Hello Everyone. Its me at last! I hope you have all had a fabulous New year so far. For anyone that I didn't send an email to wishing them well, I apologize and am sorry for being away for so long.
I took a mad turn and decided to write a book! lol. I have taken a breather to pop on here and say hello and share my happy day. I know a lady should never say her age but I am cool about it....I think!!! lol. 39 today and It has been such a great day. Next year will be a different story! lol.

I got lovely cards and brilliant presents. Mister man was a superstar making me a cooked breakfast and Roast Dinner for our evening meal. He bought me an mp3 player and gave me a cool book. I got loads of cool stuff like flowers and chocs and was thoroughly spoilt all day. I think this has been the best birthday in many years. I am looking forward to a busy day tomorrow at work as I will be jigging along the pavement, singing, looking like a right plonker!! lol. Hope you are all well in your wee worlds. Miss you all. My babies are doing fine. G is growing by the day and no longer goes out all night. The weather doesn't agree with him so he swings on the front door handle after a couple of hours outside!!! We now put him out at 9pm.

Oscar is still the sookiest baby going and loves his mama. Purdie is ageing graciously and sleeps quite a lot, when she is awake the other 2 know their place! she also soon wakens right up if there is a can of tuna opened! lol. Wee treasure is doing well at school. We are having to do excercises twice a day for her ankle and were told the other day that it will be a minimum of 6 months before we see a difference. A badly fallen arch needs corrected. Trying to get a teenager to do anything is so hard!! lol. I am laying down the law on this one as, her walking properly is a priority. loads of arguments especially about footwear go on in this house. I am surprised you don't all hear us! lol.

Mister man has chilled out somewhat and has turned his attention to motorbikes. I, too share this passion so we are definitely on the same wavelength. I think that is you all brought up to speed on the latest adventures in my world. Must go and do a wee quiz now on king.com before my bath It's so addictive, I love it! Take Care, Back Soon. xx

Merry Christmas Everyone

2008-12-21T12:06:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone. It's hard to believe that Christmas is here once more. I have been flat out. Work has been rather pre-occupying. I had a wee problem with a lack of hours and felt quite panicky. Working some relief hours in the local nursing home has been a godsend. I am trying to finish off the last minute bits and pieces. I have been away from here for ages and have missed it. I miss catching up with all of you. I was shocked to hear about my fav other man Mort and so pleased to hear a happy outcome. Thanks for the txts Mort. sad to notice more losses in J-Land. This time of year is especially hard when we lose people or suffer hardships or ill health, so, to those in that position, I hold you all that little bit closer and will say a wee prayer for you all.

Took a mad turn yesterday and went to Marks and Spencers to buy the both sets of parents a gift, now for those of you who are not familiar with that store, may I just tell you that It is rather more expensive than the others. Good quality though. Not a place I frequent!! lol. So there I was absolutely shattered, wandering aimlessly around M&S searching for 2 gifts. I eyed up the hampers but at £50 each, I found that way over my budget. I was told by the lady that they could make them up with Items I choose and they would wrap them up and add a bright red or gold bow. The baskets were £10 on their own so I declined, as I would never ever pay a tenner for an empty basket! lol. I chose x2 canvas bags and chose my goodies like christmas cake and yule log and chocs etc. They looked amazing when they were wrapped and I am glad i got them, I just hope they all like them.

I don't have to worry about my wee treasure as Santa brings all hers!! Hmmm. What a wonderful man he is. I will duly write my note to him and make sure I put it somewhere he will definately see it! lol. I must go and grab a coffee and lay out work clothes for tomorrow. I will get round to reading your journals just as soon as I can. Feel free to email me. I hope you all have a spectacular Christmas and New Year. Be Happy. Love and Best Wishes to you all. Take Care, Back Soon. xx

A New Award

2008-11-19T12:06:00.000-08:00

Thank you Missie for this great award. I always smile when I get one of those! A real confidence boost. It Is now down to me to pass this along to 7 worthy recipients. I had no problem in naming 7, I could have named so many more and I am sure that If you don't have one, then you will, very soon. Thank you again Missie. xx

Here are the rules:-
1. Please put the logo on your journal - Real People - Real Blogs.
2. Place a link from the person, from whom you received the award.
3. Nominate at least 7 if you can.
4. Put the links of those on your journal.
5. Leave a message on their journal to let them know.
6. Put the award on your sidebar/journal.

Here are my 7:

Mort: Caring and Sharing

Yasmin: Isn't She Great

Jane: A Journey of Another Kind

Lisa: Life on A Bison Farm

Val: There Is A Season

Betty: A Corgi in Southern California

Jenny: No Pleasure Cruise

I will hopefully get a chance to visit journals in the next few days. Take care, Back Soon. xx

Wee Treasure has Crutches

2008-11-19T11:40:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone,

After checking my wee treasure's ankle on Monday, I decided to take her to the Accident and Emergency department of our local hospital to get it checked out further and thankfully it is not broken, only very badly sprained. It was very fast from beginning to end which was brilliant. I had to get a taxi both ways which proved rather costly! luckily I had put some Christmas money aside which was good,

They gave her crutches after putting on a bandage and sent us on our way. I had a wee sleep when we got home, think it helped. I had parents evening at the school last night. Mister man and I arrived on the motorbike which turned a few heads! It didn't help that he was whizzing around in all the nooks and crannies of the playground reliving his youth as he "could get away with it now!" lol. Boys will be boys. I gave him a rather dirty look when I got off the back and after stifling giggles we went in to the main hall.

There was a noticeboard on the wall with all the seating arrangements for the teachers which we were to study and find our way from, and I was then instantly happy I wasn't trying to find my way myself! I could see devilment in mister mans eyes when we sat down as he said he had an idea and scuttled off, only to return with the 2 sheets of paper off the main board!!! I shook my head as I listened to him saying "This will make it much easier to find these teachers!" lol. I bet it would! Shame for everyone else tho!

We had 6 to get through and all were positive apart from English which almost had us falling off our seats. The teacher said she couldn't see our wee treasure doing her Foundation exam which is the main one for all. Thankfully she went on to say she wanted her to go for credit, which is the highest! Wow! One very proud mama I can tell you and her dad was speechless. We were really impressed. Clever girl. We exchanged the old verbal war of words......"she takes after me......no,no she takes after me"! lol. It doesn't matter to us what path she chooses in life, we will be right behind her every step of the way. Take Care, Back Soon. xx

Thank You J-Landers

2008-11-16T11:00:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone. I am delighted to have just received an email from Val telling me I have won Sentence of the week again. Wow! Thank you so much. I just adore this wee game and missed it terribly when I was offline. After such a hard time of it lately, this is just the tonic to put a smile back on my gloomy chops! lol.

I have been working non stop straight through and only managed to really relax for a few hours this weekend. My wee treasure went over on her ankle earlier today and had me runnning around daft getting her comfortable. Poor wee sausage, it is such a painful thing doing that. I will make sure she gets plenty of rest.

I will hopefully get round to reading more journals soon and catch up on what everybody has been up to. I am still finding my way round and found it rather frustrating to keep being booted off line whenever I tried to add a picture!. Hmmm, most infuriating!. Anyway, I will get there in the end, I am sure. I will go now and check on my wee treasure. Thank you for giving me the honour of being a winner again. I am thrilled. Take Care, Back Soon. xx

Swings and Roundabouts

2008-11-10T08:04:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone, I have had a rather rotten time of it lately, hence the delay in posting any new entries. I lost one of my clients to a sudden death and I was shocked to the core. I spent a whole day crying constantly trying to get my head round the sad news. A beautiful lady with such a wonderful outlook on life. I decided to go to the funeral. I felt very alone as I walked into the church hoping to slip into the back seats and was totally taken aback at the packed church!.

I have never seen anything like it before. that spoke volumes to me about the lady I had been caring for on a daily basis. The service was beautiful. Very funny in parts. I held it together by singing as loud as i could and praising myself inwardly. I decided against the next part and slowly walked home feeling very strange. You know that when someone is poorly, you go on the journey with that person. On this particular occassion it was so unexpected and it will take me a wee while to get back on my feet properly. I will never forget her and keep our laughter together very close to me.

On the afternoon that I was told the sad news, I also had my 12 week appraisal with my boss. I got some good advice from her on coping with greif and was thrilled to be told, I had been given brilliant feedback from my clients and I had definately passed with flying colours. I was given my new blue uniform and a cosy winter fleece, An amazing moment was tainted with such sadness as I wanted to tell my lady my good news and of course show her my uniform. I do, though,talk to her and have done so,every day and I am sure if one more person in the street catches me talking to myself, I will surely be carted off! lol.

So, life for me at the moment is all swings and roundabouts. One blink and everything can change. I raise my coffee to my lovely lady and know in my heart she is doing just fine. Take Care, Back Soon. xx

I Made It! Lol

2008-10-31T12:46:00.000-07:00

Hello all my lovely fellow J-Landers. I am here at last! lol. With 40 mins to go before time up, I managed to stay online long enough to transfer here. Mind now, I have no Idea what on earth I am doing or where to start but I am sure with a little perseverance, I will get there.

How are you all doing? I felt so lost without you all and was really panicking last night when the screen kept freezing and I kept getting put through to technical support to be told the same thing over and over! lol. Grrr. I knew It wasn't a technical problem and after many hours and countless telephone calls I finally had my cross voice and voiced my frustrations.

Result? 20 mins later I was back online. A clerical error had cost me all that stress. Uninstalled and re-installed aol 4 times! Put a new filter on, which had me lying flat on the floor rather stuck! lol! Oh well. At least I can laugh about It now. It's good to moan. I am so pleased to be here, wherever It Is that I am! lol. I will go for a wee wander and work out what on earth I am meant to be doing and hopefully get round to hearing from you all asap.

Take Care Back Soon. xx

Cutting It Fine! Lol.

2008-10-30T12:08:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone,

I am so sorry for being away for so long. I have had some carry on, but I've made It back in time for one last entry in my journal. I have missed you all so much. Please email me all the places that your new journals will be at. Can't believe we are losing this. It was my fav place to go. We should all find a mutual meeting place and catch up with one another.

I have thought about you all since being away and my fav other man Morton has kept me up to date. Mort you are a star, Thank You. xx. I have settled in to my new job as a Home Care Attendant now and I love It. I have quite a few characters to go to as you can well Imagine!! lol. I have been helping out in the local nursing home aswell, which has been brilliant. I did that job 20 years ago, Gosh where does the time go eh? lol.

On the downside of being away I almost lost my mum and I was terrified. I am so pleased to say she Is absolutely fine now and I am keeping a close eye on her. My dad Is fine too. I spent the weekend there with my wee treasure singing along to the Singstar game. I reckon I am not too bad but my wee lambchop puts me to shame!! lol. I get a score of 7 or 8 thousand but madam gets 9 thousand! Hmmmm she ges It from me you know! lol.

G, Oscar and purdie are all fine. G decided to take a mad turn at 6.35am and launch himself on lamchops bed! I had a good laugh In the kitchen making my cuppa listening to the squeals!! lol Oh I'm bad! I just ate soft fudge sweets that were erm... yukky! Need to remember to stock up on the choc! lol. Weight wise things have been rather successful. I was a size 22 in clothes and now I am pleased to say I am buying new jeans in the next couple of weeks........Drum Roll Please......lol ... size 14. Yay! Walking folks, thats the secret, walking. I could have cried In the beginning In fact I did cry, and pant n puff, and curse! lol but I persisted. ;-)

Right I think It's time for me to sign off now as I've been waffling for a while. Great to be back folks. I won't say goodbye, just farewell till our paths cross again soon.Take Care, Love Pam xx

Tags: Cutting It Fine! Lol.

Taking A Break

2008-07-01T04:11:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone, I am taking a wee break from my Journal for a week or 2. I have a lot of stuff to sort out and desperately need to get something sorted out work wise. I will be popping online as I need to check out the new vacancies posted, and enter sentence of the week! lol, so If anybody needs me, or wants me to see something then, Please just send me an email.

I will feel strange turning off my alerts but I really need to spend this time focussing on a better future, which means I will be really knuckling down looking for work and getting fit. I have discovered a channel on sky 288. It is simply wonderful. It's all about Balance and helping to get a better body and lifestyle. I especially like Kundilini Yoga with Maya Fiennes, which I have tried and must say, I absolutely love to bits. It Is so relaxing and theraputic and has done wonders for my back and my mind.

I am still walking an awful lot, so between the two, I am feeling really good at the moment. I reccommend It to anyone. I also have my garden to tackle over the next couple of weeks, I should lose at least a stone doing that!! lol. I left the house the other night to go to the shop and as I stepped down the outside steps this enormous dark maroon coloured frog/toad thingy leapt up In front of me! lol. I almost fell back through the door. Once I had shouted my wee treasure down to witness the beastie, It leapt Into the garden/Jungle! lol.

I will have to do a sweeping brush search before I get the strimmer out! It may take some time!! lol. I can still hear my adoreable daughter laughing at the state of me. I also want to spend some time with my little monster! lol. I need to prise her away from the T.V. ER, One Tree Hill and Big Brother are a permanent fixture In this house! lol. So all my lovely darlings, I will Love you and leave you now with some Kundilini as a wee taster. Take Care of you all and I will see you all real soon. xx

Tags: Taking A Break.

Weekly Sentence #20

2008-06-24T11:36:00.000-07:00

Click here to play: Weekly Sentence

Each Week Val will give you a set of six letters. A sentence
must be made from these letters. The letters today are:-SCWTST

An example of a sentence could be - Six cows waded through sea tides .These letters MAY

NOT be re-arranged.

SCWTST

Here Is Mine:

Saucy Charlotte Whispered 'Tonight' Sweet Tiger.

Tags: Weekly Sentence #20.

G & The Mouse

2008-06-20T08:32:00.000-07:00

Psst Mort.. you can see a bit of flesh!! lol. ;-)

Hello Everyone, I went to my Aquafit class and almost had a pink fit! lol. The teacher was off again but my friend calmly reminded me that we could just swim lengths! Doh! I just never thought of that, and was ready to leave! lol. Well, we spent the hour pushing ourselves and It felt good. I was shattered when I came out the pool and walked the good distance home, In the pouring rain! lol. I wouldn't have minded so much but I had just spent time and money drying my hair!!! lol. Grrr.

I found myself In brand new territory this morning, very, very early. I came face to face with G (my cat) for those of you who don't know me. I beckoned him to come In and luckily noticed that he had a mouse In his mouth so rather than shrieking at him, at that unearthly hour, I opened my bottle of water and threw It over him. Hmmm. Well, I tried, He ran, the water missed him and soaked mister man's bike and so It began, The game of cat and mouse at 4am!

I walked towards him and wanted to check In case the mouse was still alive but my bad boy had other Idea's! Each time I closed In, he picked It up and ran further along the path, dropping It In front of him to lie looking at me. I was In full view of all the neighbourhood houses as I loudly whispered for him to put that down and get In the house! lol. He scrunched up his face looked at his mouse, looked at me and growled really loudly!!! Oh! The cheek of It! I have never seen this dark orange side to him!!! lol.

So, of course, I did the only thing I could do, under the circumstances and I growled back!! lol. I only hope all my neighbours were sound asleep. I told him he was a bad boy. After 3 or 4 steps I looked round and he was creeping behind me only to drop It down when I turned his way and begin to chew! Yuk! Now, I know that cats eat mice etc, It is the equivalent to a tasty steak to them, but I prefer mine to eat their crunchy biccy's, with treat's like ham and tuna! lol. He has the cheek to come In each morning acting like he is starving!!

He Is fast asleep on my bed next to Oscar now. It's no wonder he Is growing on a daily basis!! I had words with him earlier and we have an understanding now!!! lol. I will leave you now with a recent pic of my naughty boy! You'd think that butter wouldn't melt! lol. ;-) Take care, Back Soon. xx

Tags: G & The Mouse.

Weekly Sentence #19

2008-06-17T06:59:00.000-07:00

Click here to play: Weekly Sentence

Each Week Val will give you a set of six letters. A sentence
must be made from these letters. The letters today are:-FATHER

An example of a sentence could be - Father always thought
he enjoyed ruling.These letters MAY

NOT be re-arranged.

FATHER

Here Is Mine:

Father's Are True Heroic Effervescent Rocks.

Tags: Weekly Sentence #19.

Happy Father's Day Dad

2008-06-17T06:46:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone. I am Indeed late posting this entry for Father's Day but Sunday just didn't have enough hours In the day!! lol. I only had 4 hours sleep on Saturday night so by Sunday morning I was a tad wobbly and rather hallucinogenic! lol. I woke to my wee treasure In a whisper asking, If It would be okay to give her dad his gifts and the card now? and I said yes. I got up and wished my mister man a happy day and called my own dad to wish him well before I went shopping.

My mum answered the phone and said my dad was In the car waiting for her to go to shopping to the same place as me! lol. We laughed and she said they would be right there to pick us up and we could all go together. Now when It comes to shopping my dad has to be the most patient man on this earth!. He usually stays In the car and just waits and waits! lol. I think with him being a keen fisherman all throughout his life, this has helped Immensley! lol. We got It all done and took a bit longer than we meant but, my dad just laughed.

I got all the shopping put In the boot and we all went across to their house. It is such a lovely place where they stay and you can really relax. I got all comfy and looked at wedding pictures of my parents while my wee treasure was totally taken aback asking If It was really them? lol. The day turned out to be far more special than ever anticipated and my dad was really happy.

When It comes to music, my dad loves all kinds and one of his all time favourites Is Johnny Cash. I have memories from years back hearing him sing and joining In with songs like, Ring Of Fire and Sunday Morning Coming Down, In the back of the car going away our holiday's and the last time I was over visiting we watched a show and film about him. It was really Interesting.

I will leave you now with my all time favourite....Sunday Morning Coming Down. It Is a song that no matter where It Is played, It will always remind me of my dad. I hope you enjoy It. Take Care, Back Soon. Love Pam xx

Well, I woke up Sunday morning
With no way to hold my head that didn't hurt.
And the beer I had for breakfast wasn't bad,
So I had one more for dessert.
Then I fumbled in my closet through my clothes
And found my cleanest dirty shirt.
Then I washed my face and combed my hair
And stumbled down the stairs to meet the day.

I'd smoked my mind the night before
With cigarettes and songs I'd been picking.
But I lit my first and watched a small kid
Playing with a can that he was kicking.
Then I walked across the street
And caught the Sunday smell of someone frying chicken.
And Lord, it took me back to something that I'd lost
Somewhere, somehow along the way.

On a Sunday morning sidewalk,
I'm wishing, Lord, that I was stoned.
'Cause there's something in a Sunday
That makes a body feel alone.
And there's nothing short a' dying
That's half as lonesome as the sound
Of the sleeping city sidewalk
And Sunday morning coming down.

In the park I saw a daddy
With a laughing little girl that he was swinging.
And I stopped beside a Sunday school
And listened to the songs they were singing.
Then I headed down the street,
And somewhere far away a lonely bell was ringing,
And it echoed through the canyon
Like the disappearing dreams of yesterday.

On a Sunday morning sidewalk,
I'm wishing, Lord, that I was stoned.
'Cause there's something in a Sunday
That makes a body feel alone.
And there's nothing short a' dying
That's half as lonesome as the sound
Of the sleeping city sidewalk
And Sunday morning coming down.

Tags: Happy Father's Day Dad.

A Strong Woman Award

2008-06-14T10:24:00.000-07:00

Hello Everyone. I would just like to say thank You so much as, I was given this lovely award by Sherry, who originally received It from her children. Sherry has chosen 3 women that she considers to be strong and In turn wants the recipients to choose 3 more and, so the journey of the award goes, It will soon whip around J-land at the speed of light! lol.

The Complicated Men Award has still to be made!! lol. Only kidding all you lovely fella's. ;-)

Okay on to the hard bit of only choosing 3 wonderful strong women! Phew, Right now, I can name about 30 of you, but to prevent Sherry from chasing me with a large broom, I will stick to just 3.

Betty: Betty reminds me of a very wise owl, she seems to always appear when she Is needed the most, gives wonderful advice and, yet never seems to divulge anything too negative herself, Her faith Is truly Inspiring.

Angel: Angel has been amazing of late, with coping, In her sad quest to get over her mum's death. Her strong will and humour touches and tickles my very soul.

Krissy: Krissy's dedication towards her hubby John all throughout his darkest days of being desperately Ill, and still now to this day, demonstrates a very determined strength In Itself.

All 3 are Indeed a true testimont to the words 'Strong Woman'. Please collect your awards ladies and start your own choices, for 3 remarkably strong ladies. Take care, Back Soon. xx

Tags: A Strong Woman Award

A Wee Worry Update.

2008-06-12T07:10:00.000-07:00

Psst. Mort. That's 2 normal pics In a row! Shocking I know! lol.

Hello Everyone, I went to see the doctor this morning and came out feeling a lot more positive which is good! lol. My doctor Is such a nice man, He has all the time In the world for his patients and really cares. I am very lucky to have him. Anyway, He is referring me to see a Bowel specialist and hopefully we can get to the bottom (lol. mort..don't spill your tea at that pun!) of what's causing this flaming lump In my side. I got other results when I was there, that It wasn't this disease or that disease, which Is good! lol.
I am not looking forward to getting tubes down my throat or anywhere else for that matter!!! lol. Ohhh I am cringing, but I guess I will just have to be brave.

It Is a nuisance though and the sooner It gets sorted, the better!. I am waiting on a letter to come through for physiotherapy for my lower back aswell now which Is fab!. I have to go back next week and get blood tests done to check my thyroid level, I think It may still be a tad high as I am on the move constantly, (In my quest for the Supermodel figure! Ha!) and I am still carrying extra lard and still far too tired! Well. the old saying eh?..Rome wasn't built In a day! Hmmm. I am being very, very patient! lol.

Being worried around mister man Is always a recipe for disaster... His theory...'Och, stop whinging', 'It will be a bit of my Toad-In-The-Hole that's got stuck!' lol. I do end up In stitches at the way he cheers me up. I think we are all mad In this house! All three of us and the 3 cats! I will freak about It all nearer the time and no doubt have A wee worry part 83! by the time I am finished If I haven't disintegrated by then. lol.

I was disappointed to learn that the swimming was cancelled last night as Brutal Bertha needed the night off! Hmm. Can she not see my lard? lol. Typical eh?, They all let me down last week so I braved It and went myself, this week the flippin teacher absconds! I give up! lol. Anyway I will love you and leave you now With the brilliant Amy Macdonald. Hope you are all well. Take Care, Back Soon. xx

Mr. Rock And Roll

So called Mr Rock And Roll
Is dancing on his own again
Talking on his phone again
To someone who tells him that his balance is low
He's got no where to go
He's on his own again

Rock chick of the century
Is acting like she used to be
Dancing like there's no one there
Before she ever seemed to care
Now she wouldn't dare
It's so rock and roll to be alone

And they'll meet one day
Far away
And say "I wish I was something more"
And they'll meet one day
Far away
And say " I wish I knew you, I wish I knew you before"

Mrs Black and White
She's never seen a shade of grey
Always something on her mind
Every single day
But now she's lost her way
And where does she go from here

Mr Multicultural
Sees all that one can see
He's living proof of someone
Very different to me
But now he wants to be free
Free so he can see

And they'll meet one day
Far away
And say "I wish I was something more"
And they'll meet one day
Far away
And say "I wish I knew you, I wish I knew you before"

He'll say "I wish I knew you, I wish I met you
When time was still on my side"
She'll say " I wish I knew you, I wish I loved you
Before I was his bride"

And so they must depart
Too many more are broken hearts
But I've seen that all before
In TV, books and film and more
And there's a happy ending
Every single day

And they'll meet one day
Far away
And say "I wish I was something more"
And they'll meet one day
Far away
And say "I wish I knew you, I wish I knew you before"

Tags: A Wee Worry Update.

Weekly sentence #18

2008-06-12T05:13:00.000-07:00

Click here to play: Weekly Sentence

Each Week Val will give you a set of six letters. A sentence
must be made from these letters. The letters today are:-STDIMS

An example of a sentence could be - Sardines taste delicious in mustard sauce These letters MAY

NOT be re-arranged.

STDIMS

Here Is Mine:

Student Tony Dressed In Molly's Stockings

Tags: Weekly Sentence #18

Special Friend Award

2008-06-06T09:45:00.000-07:00

Hello Everyone,

I did some awards In a previous entry and wanted to give out some more to my extended J-Land family! lol. Thanks to each and every one of you. Gosh I feel like I'm at the Oscars! lol. and secondly I'd like to thank.... Lol. Only kidding!

I will make It short and sweet...You guys brighten my wee world. ;-) Take Care, Back Soon. xx

There is a Season ...Val

Ten thirteen goes forth ...Shaun

Life ...Andy

Amanda and the Gang ...Amanda

A Quiet Life......I Wish ...Carol

Life On A Bison Farm ...Lisa

Day to Day life in the Lakes ...Jeanie

IS'NT SHE GREAT!! ...Yasmin

ANYWAY..Connie

Latte'Dah ...Tracy

Boredom Eats Away At Me ...Jenny

Life & Faith in Caneyhead ...Barbara

Raven's Lament ...Indigo

Dare To Think ...Cathy

caring and sharing ...Mortonlake

Dusty Pages ...Lori

Serendipity ...Jan

Sometimes I Think ...Krissy

Sherry's weightloss journey ...Sherry

Atkins Adventures ...Donna

Joann's Weight Loss Journey ...Joann

MY SIMPLE RHYMES ...Kath

A journey of another kind ...Jane

Koda's Corgi Tales ...Betty

Dad's Tomato Growing Garden Journal 2008...Dad

Missy's Upside Down World ...Missy

Angel's thoughts

My Extremely Simple Life ...Joyce

For anyone who wants to give this to other friends, please go right ahead.;-) xx

Tags: Special Friend Award.

Aquafit

2008-06-04T15:18:00.000-07:00

Hello Everyone. I meant to give you all a wee update about my Aqua Aerobics last week or should I say Battered Body with Brutal Bertha Class! lol. It was just my friend and I that went, and I must admit the Teacher wasn't as brutal as normal. Phew! lol. I had my list all sorted for this week and the numbers were up to 6 which Is a fair few people to be nominating their carcuses for a good old fashioned beating! lol.

I got myself all psyched up for the class and sent the texts to arrange the meeting time for everyone and one by one they all cancelled!. The first one being my wee treasure ,who had sore feet, Then one had to work, One had someone visiting, One had an upset stomach and One was drunk! lol. Hmmm. Well! that left me on my little lonesome. Could I do It? Could I really walk all the way there by myself, climb Into a pool with a load of strangers and do a whole hour's class with Brutal Bertha roaring 'Faster'!.

The answer Is Yes. I did It. I am so pleased that I did. I was nervous and jittery and spent the whole time extremely self conscious, but hey, I did It and I feel good. My confidence has had a wee boost. So the next time you are In that kind of situation, tell yourself this, If Pam can do It, so can I. ;-) I will leave you now with this funny wee video. Hope you enjoy It. Take Care, Back Soon. xx

P.S. Thanks Mort for the award. You're a star. ;-) xx

Tags: Aquafit.

-Weekly Sentence #17

2008-06-03T06:02:00.000-07:00

Click here to play: Weekly Sentence

Each Week Val will give you a set of six letters. A sentence
must be made from these letters. The letters today are:-TNADTM

An example of a sentence could be - The nun arrived driving
the motorcycle. These letters MAY

NOT be re-arranged.

TNADTM

Here Is Mine:

Tiny Negligee-Adorned Damsel Teased Morton

Tags: Weekly Sentence #17

Caring Friend Award

2008-06-03T04:44:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone, I wanted to do something to spread a little happiness In J-Land, as there are so many people having a rough time and In need of a boost. After a lot of thought, I remembered how good I felt when I received the 'Nice Matters Award' a few months back and wanted to try something along those lines and that's when I decided to come up with a 'Caring Friend Award.'

Now I must stress at this point that I am not an arty type of person at all. I have merely given It my best shot and, I am, however, rather surprised and pleased with the end result!! lol. I hope you will be too.

This award will be given because so many people do so many wonderful things for each other here In J-Land, There are those that, Always give support In the blink of an eye, Take the time to leave comments, Send personal emails, Offer prayer In troublesome times or Spend all their time taking care of others.

There are 5 awards to choose from. You can decide yourself which one you would like for your sidebar when you are chosen and also how many you would like to pass on to others. I want to give these to so many people and will start the ball rolling with 5 friends I believe could use a little boost.

Please stop by all the above journals and wish them well. Take Care, Back Soon. xx

Tags: Caring Friend Award, Blogplugs.

Weekly Sentence #16

2008-05-28T06:01:00.000-07:00

Thanks Joyce for the Great Tag. xx ...... Mort check out the video at the bottom, believe It or not, they are actually singing! lol. ;-)

Click here to play: Weekly Sentence

Each Week Val will give you a set of six letters. A sentence
must be made from these letters. The letters today are:-NSWHSB

An example of a sentence could be - Never swim while holding
shark bait! These letters MAY NOT be re-arranged.

NSWHSB

Here Is Mine:

Naughty Sue Wolfwhistled Hello Sailor Boys!

Candyman lyrics

Tarzan and Jane were wingin' on a vine"
Candyman, Candyman
Sippin' from a bottle of vodka double wine
Sweet sugar candy man [whispered]

I met him out for dinner on a Friday night
He really had me working up an appetite
He had tattoos up and down his arm
There's nothing more dangerous than a boy with charm
He's a one stop shop, makes the panties drop
He's a sweet-talkin', sugar coated candy man
A sweet-talkin', sugar coated candyman

Ooo yeah..

He took me to the Spider Club at Hollywood and Vine
We drank champagne and we danced all night
We shook the paparazzi for a big surprise
the gossip tonight will be tomorrow's headline

He's a one stop shop, make my cherry pop
He's a sweet-talkin', sugar coated candy man
A sweet-talkin', sugar coated candyman

Se bop bop
Hey yeah
...

He's a one stop shop, makes my cherry pop
He's a sweet-talkin', sugar coated candy man oh
A sweet-talkin', sugar coated candyman

Woo yeah

Well by now I'm getting all bothered and hot
When he kissed my mouth he really hit the spot
He had lips like sugar cane
Good things come to boys who wait

Candy man can...
Candy man Candy man
Tarzan and Jane were swingin' on a vine
Sipping from a bottle of vodka double wine
Candy man, candy man

Sweet sugar candy man [whispered]
He's a one stop, gotcha hot, making all the panties drop
Sweet sugar candy man [whispered]
He's a one stop, got me hot, making my uh pop
Sweet sugar candy man [whispered]
He's a one stop, get it while it's hot, baby don't stop
Sweet sugar candy man [whispered]

He got those lips like sugar cane
Good things come for boys who wait

He's a one stop shop with a real big egh
He's a sweet-talkin', sugar coated candyman [x3]

Tarzan and Jane were swingin' on a vine [x2]
Sippin' from a bottle of vodka double wine [x2]
Jane lost her grip and a-down she fell [x2]
Squared herself away as she let out a yell [x2]

Tags: Weekly Sentence #16.

Working Out

2008-05-23T11:17:00.000-07:00

Thanks Joyce for the great Tag. ;-) xx

Hello Everyone, It has been an okay week. I have kept on the move In my quest for the perfect body! lol. I have been walking constantly up and down my street which Is quite a good distance.

I went to Aqua Aerobics with my Wee treasure on Wednesday night. Well! What can I say apart from...Ouch! lol. The woman who was giving us all the moves, to do was, In fact, some sort of sadist!. The way she was jumping around In front of us was made to appear far too easy, whilst In fact everyone In the pool was huffing and puffing, sighing, grumbling and laughing nervously! lol.

Anyway I waited anxiously on the couple of mins break throughout the hour long session. It later transpired that this woman had no Intention of letting you compose yourself for a second, let alone take a break! lol. Arghhh. I did It though and so did my wee treasure, who In fact did brilliantly. I was extremely proud of her, as she seemed to be having a great time aswell!!!. We both slept like logs! and will be going back for more punishment next week! lol.

When I moved my livingroom around last week, I dragged my piano out from the corner and put It up against the facing wall as you walk In, so now I have no excuse not to get playing It! lol. I can't read music and can only play by ear, but I love my piano and hope to learn at some point. My cats have had a go aswell, when their furry paws hit the keys, their reaction was priceless. I was having a wee look at different piano video's when I came across this one and had a real laugh. I will leave you now with Nora who Is a very talented little lady. Take Care Back Soon. xx

Tags: Working Out.

On A Mission.

2008-05-19T05:59:00.000-07:00

Thanks D for the great tag.

P.S. Mort....There Is an entry under this pic! lol. ;-)

Hello Everyone, I am still job searching. Hopefully something will come through for me soon. I had to laugh last week. I honestly pictured someone up above, having a rather long and hearty laugh at my expense! lol. I decided on tackling the garden with having so much time on my hands, so I got ready,
Slapped on all the gardening attire and started hauling out the tools, Rake, Hoe, lawnmower and strimmer. I was raring to go, plugged In the lawnmower and this almighty high pitched screeching noise almost made the birds fall out the tree's! lol.

So, that was that. The lawnmower was no more! Hmmm. I attempted to strim but gave up, as the strimmer Is In fact very small and more like an edger! and not designed to tackle a garden my size. After 5 mins It felt as though I had been clinging on to a numatic drill! lol. Tools away. Inside the house needed doing anyway, I had just been avoiding It like the plague!, so I had a cup of tea to soothe the anger, then after dusting, decided to tackle the hoovering. Moments later... The Hoover blew up! lol. I can laugh now!!!. Okay the lawnmower was bad enough but now the hoover!. Amazingly enough, I stayed calm. These things are sent to try us, better to laugh It off and move on.

I Borrowed my neighbour's hoover and after asking my friend to borrow a mower or bigger strimmer, was told that her man would come and do my garden free of charge! How kind. I got the house looking good, then tidied up the weeds and raked up all the cut grass. I have been walking loads aswell. I need to stay positive and use my time to try my best to shift this excess lard! lol. To date, I have lost a stone and a half. 21 pounds sounds more! lol.

Ive decided with all this walking, I need a new back and legs! lol, so If any of you happen to see any nice, shapely pins at your local sale or a nice tanned back, In perfect working order, please give me a shout! ;-) Take Care Back Soon. xx

Tags: On A Mission.

Weekly Sentence #15

2008-05-19T05:02:00.000-07:00

Click here to play: Weekly Sentence

Each Week Val will give you a set of six letters. A sentence
must be made from these letters. The letters today are:-TASBTD

An example of a sentence could be - Take a siesta before
the dance! These letters MAY NOT be re-arranged.

TASBTD

Here Is Mine:

Twinkling Abundant Stars Beautify Total Darkness

Tags: Weekly Sentence #15.

A Little Lost

2008-05-12T12:21:00.000-07:00

Thanks D, for this lovely pic. ;-)

Hello Everyone, I have been on a very fast merry-go-round of late and hope to be climbing off very soon. I will try to explain briefly what has been happening In my world. I could no longer stand being made a fool of In my work, so a few weeks back, I gathered my belongings, extremely upset, and left. This Is completely out of character for me as 'loyalty' Is usually my middle name, but I had no choice.

I am still waiting on a phonecall from my boss to ask If, and why, I have left and, If, I am okay. He wasn't there during the hours when I left and I am still shocked at the silence. I thought I meant more to him than that. Sadly you expect this from strangers but not your family. Needless to say, now that so much time has passed, I won't hold my breath!

I ran about like a mad thing trying to find work and filled out numerous application forms. Spent loads of sleepless nights worrying myself sick about money. I got a letter through the post last week to say I had an Interview for a really good job with decent money. I managed to buy a nice chocolate brown velvet suit for £2 from the local charity shop and found accessories here at home to match.

I attended with a nice positive attitude and felt very relaxed. I was Interviewed by 3 people. One lady and 2 men. The lady was a bit off, but the men were fine. I remembered to shake their hands afterwards and thank them for their time. I left, feeling pretty confident.

I received the letter through the post today and passed It to mister man to open It for me. His face told me the answer straight away...Unsuccessful at this time.. blah blah blah. Okay. Plan B. There was no plan B. If I am honest, I am rather flat. Rejection can be quite soul destroying.

I know I could have done that job no problem but I know In my heart that It simply wasn't meant to be and that I need to pick myself up, dust myself down and try again. I will leave you with Mr Michael Buble and his fabulous song called "Lost", Rather apt I thought! lol.

Take Care. Back Soon. xx

"Lost"

I can't believe it's over
I watched the whole thing fall
And I never saw the writing that was on the wall
If I'd only knew
The days were slipping past
That the good things never last
That you were crying

Summer turned to winter
And the snow it turned to rain
And the rain turned into tears upon your face
I hardly recognized the girl you are today
And god I hope it's not too late
It's not too late

'Cause you are not alone
I'm always there with you
And we'll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
'Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When your worlds crashing down
And you can't bear the thought
I said, babe, you're not lost

Life can show no mercy
It can tear your soul apart
It can make you feel like you've gone crazy
But you're not
Things have seemed to change

There's one thing that's still the same
In my heart you have remained
And we can fly fly fly away

'Cause you are not alone
And I am there with you
And we'll get lost together
Until the light comes pouring through
'Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When the worlds crashing down
And you can not bear the cross
I said, baby, you're not lost
I said, baby, you're not lost
I said, baby, you're not lost
I said, baby, you're not lost

Tags: A Little Lost.

Weekly Sentence #14

2008-05-11T15:25:00.000-07:00

Thanks D, for the Fab Pic. This will be me In the summer! lol. ;-)

Click here to play: Weekly Sentence

Each Week Val will give you a set of six letters. A sentence
must be made from these letters. The letters today are:-NDOSTM

An example of a sentence could be - Never dine on something
that moves!! These letters MAY NOT be re-arranged.

NDOSTM

Here Is Mine:

Nostradamus Deepened Our Society's Thoughtful Minds

Tags: Weekly Sentence #14.

Weekly Sentence #13

2008-05-08T08:41:00.000-07:00

Thanks D for the lovely pic. It Is so uncanny!!!! lol. ;-)

Click here to play: Weekly Sentence

Each Week She will give you a set of six letters. A sentence
must be made from these letters. The letters today are:-stestd

An example of a sentence could be - Stop to enjoy small
things daily!! These letters MAY NOT be re-arranged.

STESTD

Here Is Mine:

Stand Tall Encountering Strength Through Determination.

Tags: Weekly Sentence #13.

Thank You.

2008-05-03T17:01:00.000-07:00

Hello Everyone,

Wow! I am so pleased that I won the Weekly Sentence Competition again! Thank you so much Val and the other judge's for choosing me, It was just the boost that was needed. I have displayed It proudly In my sidebar.

I am experiencing a few major changes at the moment. Change Is always scary, but I will shake and freak my way through It! lol. I hope that I will be feeling more secure In a few weeks. Nothing for anyone to worry about, I may add.

This Lotto Is getting closer! I have been doing the Euromillions on a Friday and boy! I have been so close!. Not close enough though! I have things to do with that money, I have quite a large list growing for all you J-Lander's ....

Lisa gets tons of nice new cat accessories, Val gets a special pampering session, Jenny gets to meet the group Queen, Joyce gets her pool, Mort gets a holiday and personal nurse, Angel gets a cup of tea from a Scottish visitor lol.

Jane gets whatever she needs, Stevie will get a day In a recording studio. Lori will get a round trip ticket to come and visit me. Joann gets a china tea set and enough fresh flowers to fill a room. Indigo gets a brand new complex for cats, Sherry gets a personal trainer for a month, Monica gets a Digital Camera, Jan gets a Laptop ...

As you can see, the list Is growing! lol. I know there Is more but I just can't think. If anyone has a special request for sharing my future lotto win then just let me know! lol. Okay I must go and think about getting some sleep now.

I bought a wee smokey quartz stone, to attract positivity and bring good thing's Into my my wee world, and have It tucked away safely, In my bra!!. Well, The closer to me It gets, the better, so they say! Can't get much closer than that!! lol. ;-)

Lovin' you all and leavin' you all, until the next time. with a fabulous wee Scottish girl called Amy Macdonald who Is simply wonderful.
Take care. Back Soon. xx

"Run" by Amy Macdonald

Will you tell me when the lights are fading
Cos I can't see, I can't see no more
Will you tell me when the song stops playing
Cos I can't hear, I can't hear no more

She said I don't know what you're living for
She said I don't know what you're living for at all
He said I don't know what you're living for
He said I don't know what you're living for at all

But I will run until my feet no longer run no more
And I will kiss until my lips no longer feel no more
And I will love until my heart it aches
And I will love until my heart it breaks
And I will love until there's nothing more to live for

Will you tell me when the fighting's over
Cos I can't take, I can't take no more
Will you tell me when the day is done
Cos I can't run, I can't run no more

She said I don't know what you did it for
She said I don't know what you did it for at all
He said I don't know what you did it for
He said I don't know what you did it for at all

But I will run until my feet no longer run no more
And I will kiss until my lips no longer feel no more
And I will love until my heart it aches
And I will love until my heart it breaks
And I will love until there's nothing more to live for

And I will love until my heart it aches
And I will love until my heart it breaks
And I will love until there's nothing more to live for

Tags: Thank You.

Weekly Sentence #12

2008-04-29T14:50:00.000-07:00

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Each Saturday She will give you a set of six letters. A sentence
must be made from these letters. The letters today are:-splats

An example of a sentence could be - some polygamists lie about their situationThese letters MAY NOT be re-arranged.

splats

Here Is Mine:

Staying Positive Lifts Away Troublesome Stress.

Tags: Weekly Sentence #12.

Happy Birthday Mum

2008-04-28T15:02:00.000-07:00

Hello Everyone. Today Is my mum's Birthday and I sat for rather a long time wondering what to get her.
I thought It would be a nice Idea to look for a poem and pop It In a nice frame to go along with some flowers and chocolates, but after looking for 5 mins, I decided to write one myself. I waited on my Wee Treasure to come home from school then we caught the teatime bus.

Mister Man arrived on his bike and my mum was really pleased to see us all and loved her gifts. Along with other family members, we all sang Happy Birthday and watched my mum blow out her candles. It Is hard to believe that she Is 76 today. If I look like her at that age, I will be doing cartwheels! lol. I have posted the poem I wrote and added one of her favourite songs along with It's lyrics at the end.

Take Care Back Soon. xx

Happy Birthday Mum

Impeccable manners an example to follow,
No smoking or drinking or tablets to swallow
Your voice very soft yet, your will very strong.
The list of your good points just goes on and on.

A lady who cares more than one person should.
Through good times and bad times, she will make you feel good.
Always a phonecall to check we're okay,
Its lovely to know she's not too far away.

The kitchen Is where you will find my mum.
When the front door Is closed, the cooking's begun.
Homemade Jam and some Fairy Cakes,
Sausage and Tomato Pie, she so easily makes.

An animal lover like you wouldn't believe.
For her favourite "The Gorilla", she wears her heart on her sleeve.
Growing up with cats, dogs, chickens and goats,
Her favourite holiday, on the Cruise Liner Boats.

Remembering back to those very young years,
She would always be first to stop any tears.
Rocked back and forth with a gentle pat on the back,
Nothing else mattered, security intact.

Thank you mum for always being there.
For taking the time, to show that you care.
I've learn't very much, from all that you've done.
I love you so much.. My Friend... My Mum. xx

BENEATH THE LIGHTS OF HOME

Deanne Durbin - 1941

I can see the lights of home
Shining brightly o'er the foam;
Beckon to me while I roam
Away from lights of home.

I can see somebody there
loving eyes and silver hair
I can see her kneeling prayer
beneath the lights of home

In that little old sleepy town
Nothing happens when the sun goes down
not a thing but moonbeams run around
in a starry dome

Turn the hands of time for me
let me live my memory
once again I long to be
beneath the lights of home

In that little old sleepy town
nothing happens when the sun goes down
not a thing but moonbeams run around
in a starry dome

When the hands of time for me
let me live my memory
once again I long to be
beneath the lights of home.

Tags: Happy Birthday Mum, Blogplugs

Weekly Sentence #11

2008-04-21T15:58:00.000-07:00

Click here to play: Weekly Sentence

Each Saturday She will give you a set of six letters. A sentence
must be made from these letters. The letters today are:-ptatml

An example of a sentence could be - Perhaps the ape took
my lunch.These letters MAY NOT be re-arranged.

ptatml

Here Is Mine:

Pam Tentively Awaits The Millionaires' Lifestyle.

Tags: Weekly Sentence #11.

A Little Lost

2008-04-15T15:22:00.000-07:00

Hello Everyone, Apologies for not getting round to your journal's. To be honest, I've just not been able to, My get up and go has got up and gone. I am mentally exhausted. Totally stressed out. Saw the specialist at the hospital, no further forward really, need to see another one apparently. Just need to forget about it for the time being, take each day as It comes.

It would seem that quite a lot of people here In J-Land are having a really hard time too. Lisa, Jan, Lori, but to name a few, well, a wee note to say, I am thinking of you all. I will get round to see everyone just as soon as I can.

I have had a nice but rather long night tonight, helping out Stevie with his J-Land song. I eventually figured out what I was doing! lol and It really cheered me up, so Thanks stevie. I'm sure it will be brilliant when It's done. Right my lovely cherubs, I'm off to bed now. Nite nite, Sleep well everyone. Take Care, Back Soon. xx

Tags: A Little Lost.

Weekly Sentence #10

2008-04-15T15:13:00.000-07:00

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Each Saturday She will give you a set of six letters. A sentence
must be made from these letters. The letters today are:-DCNSTR

An example of a sentence could be - Do centipedes need
sneakers to run? These letters MAY NOT be re-arranged.

DCNSTR

Here Is Mine:

Dedicated Cancer Nurses Soothe Troubled Relations

Tags: Weekly Sentence #10.

My Eco-Warrior Daughter

2008-04-06T09:56:00.000-07:00

Hello Everyone.

I have had a very relaxing weekend. Woke up this morning to see heavy snow falling! It has almost all gone now. The sun Is streaming through the window and is most welcome. I stopped by a journal belonging to Michael and left a comment about my "wee treasure" writing a poem for a school project, in the form of a journalist writing in a paper, to encourage people to act upon Global Warming. I was pleased that she was more than happy to share this with everyone. Her words: "We need to take action now and help out as much as we can."

I have to admit that she drives me daft switching off lights and nagging at both me and her dad to change our ways. I sometimes get plunged Into darkness then hear the voice saying "You don't need the light and the lamp on at the same time"! lol. I put my hand up, I was one of the many people who turned a blind eye and thought that one person can't change what's happened, but I know better now. We Can make a difference and, thanks to my clever girl for being so determined and strong willed, I do sit up and take notice. We started recycling a while back and when I'm shopping, I look out for recycled items. It makes me feel pleased to be a small part In helping to halt the damage. I am so proud and privilledged to now leave you with this lovely poem.

Take Care, Back Soon. xx

It's not fake, It's real
what's happening around us,
so deep that we can't feel.
but that's not It,
It gets worse.
Not only will earth die,
but who lives on earth?
You and I.

But what If we done something,
like save ourselves?
but that's the point,
No-one can be bothered.
so I say let's make them be bothered,
and make them understand.
then earth can finally be,
best friends with man.

Tags: Blogplugs, My Eco-Warrior Daughter.

Weekly Sentence #9

2008-04-05T16:03:00.000-07:00

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Each Saturday She will give you a set of six letters. A sentence
must be made from these letters. The letters today are:-DUSBTH.

An example of a sentence could be - Do ukuleles sound better
than harps? These letters MAY NOT be re-arranged.

DUSBTH

Here Is Mine:

Dolphins Understand Special Babies Touch Hearts.

Tags: Weekly Sentence #9.

Monday Morning Question With Krissy

2008-03-31T13:18:00.000-07:00

What's the worst thing you did as a little kid? (smeared cheese on the wall, accidentally called Japan, called one of your mom's friends' fat, inadvertently downloaded Pentagon files to your dad’s computer, etc.)

I was very young when I had a slight slip up with the lord's prayer! I have highlighted the word that I used Instead of the original.

Our Father, who art in heaven,
hallowed be thy name.
Thy Kingdom come,
thy will be done,
on earth as it is in heaven
Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our trespasses,
as we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from Mabel
For thine is the kingdom, the power and the glory. For ever and ever. Amen

Mabel, being my mother! lol. Oh dear! My sis has just pointed out that this was said to the Sunday School teacher who was mortified!!! Now that has made me laugh! lol ;-)

The real naughty ones were posted in my older entry called: My Rosebud .

Take care Back soon. xx

Tags: Monday Morning Question With Krissy.

Weekly Sentence #8

2008-03-30T12:49:00.000-07:00

Click here to play: Weekly Sentence

Each Saturday She will give you a set of six letters. A sentence
must be made from these letters. The letters today are:-SPRING.

An example of a sentence could be - Six petunias rose in
Nancy's garden. These letters MAY NOT be re-arranged.

SPRING

Here Is Mine:

Singing Prayer Radiates Inspirational New Guidance

Tags: Weekly Sentence #8.

Anticipation

2008-03-30T07:53:00.000-07:00

Hello Everyone. My hair has turned out a really nice shade of red. Not too bright though! I also didn't manage to stain anything In the bathroom either! which is always a bonus. lol. It's not been the best of weekends so far. After receiving some bad news last Thursday, I am finding myself all over the place at the moment. I can't seem to stop crying and snapping at everyone. It has opened up some Issues for me and I know I am not feeling right and hate being this way. My test results can't come back soon enough. I have to somehow try to unwind and pick myself up.

I used to enjoy listening to classical music with a glass of wine and a ciggy. It feels strange to think I don't smoke or drink now. They were always my little comforters. Any crisis and I would reach for a fag and/or a drink. It always seemed to take the edge of things. I don't have these feelings numbed anymore so It's a little harder to get over things. I have consumed enough cups of tea to fill a cafe!!.

I wanted to have a wonderful happy weekend where I could get more done in the house but, I don't have the energy or drive, basically, my get up and go, has got up and gone! lol. I am quite secure and content In my jammies chilling out here, doing what I love best, talking to you all. I went on a wee mission to find the name of my favourite classical song, as I have loved It for years and never knew It's name. I will leave you now with:

"O Mio Babbino Caro".

O mio babbino care,
Mi piace, e bello bello,
Vo andare in Porta Rossa
A comperar l anello!
Si,si ci voglio andare
e se l amassi indarno
andrei sui Ponte Vecchio
ma per buttaarmi in Arno!
Mi struggo e mi tormento!
O Dio, vorrei morir!
Babbo, pieta, pieta!
Babbo, pieta, pieta!

Translation

Oh my dear daddy
I love him, he is so handsome
I want to go to Porta Rossa
to buy the ring!
Yes, yes, I mean it
And if my love were in vain
I would go to Ponte Vecchio
and throw myself in the Arno!
I fret and suffer torments!
Oh God, I would rather die!
Daddy, have pity, have pity!
Daddy, have pity, have pity!

I hope you enjoyed It. Take care, Back soon. xx

Tags: Anticipation.

Red

2008-03-28T16:39:00.000-07:00

Hello Everyone.

I really enjoyed my Easter weekend. The whole weekend was a very chilled out occassion. Plenty of chocolate eaten and some good movies watched. The Roast on the Sunday was perfect, It just finished of the day nicely. On the Monday I decided to wait until mister man had laid down on the couch for a nap and then I set to work.

I smuggled the paint, brushes and ladders Into the bathroom and got started changing the walls to a lovely fresh white! lol. Why did I do this quietly? I could just picture the conversation: "Don't go starting that, you won't get It finished" or "Don't do that today, we will do It soon" lol Yeah right!. I just had to crack on and get a good whack done before he woke up, then ask him to do all the top bits as I can't reach!!! lol women! What are we like?

I got on fine until I heard raised voices from the livingroom. I laid everything down, went through asking what was going on and In a rather sarcastic voice heard the words "What are you doing through there? Cooking?" I was absolutely covered In white paint! I rolled my eyes and headed back to the bathroom.lol Oh Men! What are they like?

Had a moment In the supermarket tonight. It was a very familiar moment Indeed! lol. It took me back to one of my earlier entries: Going Blonde This time I was alone which was good! and, I was staring at a different colour of hair dye. A very bright Red one!!! I always follow this pattern of needing change, so the obvious easy answer Is to alter my hair. Always black or dark brown and on special occassions of stress we attempt blonde! lol

I will, of course let you all know the outcome tomorrow. I have had withdrawals this week from The Weekly Sentence. At least If my hair turns out to be a complete disaster, I still have Val to give me a new set of 6 letters to cheer me up!! lol ;-) Take Care, Back Soon. xx

P.S. I got the bathroom finished with a little assistance on the top bits!! ;-) lol x

Tags: Red

Happy Easter

2008-03-22T11:21:00.000-07:00

Hello Everyone. I think things are looking up a bit. I am starting to feel a lot better. I think these new tablets are helping, Wahey! I will be swinging from the lights before we know It! lol. I asked my wee treasure what she wanted to do on Easter Sunday and she thought for a bit and asked If we could all spend the day together watching movies. I reckon she must have been reading my mind! lol. I went shopping and we will have a rather yummy Sunday dinner with Chicken, Roast Potatoes, Carrots, Yorkshire Pudding's, and loads of gravy. Mmmm.

I am sure the easter bunny will do his usual good deed and leave a mountain of scrumptious choccy eggs all over my livingroom carpet!! lol. He is In bother If he doesn't! lol. We always ventured up hills In the past to roll our eggs downwards. This was something that we were taught from an early age, to roll our eggs before we ate them to symbalise the stone rolling away. I have passed on this tradition and have found myself saying In a rather loud voice: "Roll the egg! Don't throw It" lol. It was always more humourous for the pair of them to see how far It could go!! lol

The thought of staying home this year Is just perfect for me. A real chilled out Easter Is definately on my list. A few years ago, when I was well and reasonably fit, We all ventured up a rather steep hill armed with the rucksack filled with a picnic and wee treasure's eggs. I only really remember running, to get away from a ram chasing me, and getting caught up In a fence, while mister man and wee treasure were almost purple with laughter!! lol.

I hope you all have a fabulous Easter, whether you stay In or venture out. I want to leave you with something that was sent to me In an email by a lovely lady. I was so touched, I just have to share It with you all. I am sure you will love It, as much as me. Take Care Back Soon. xx

Awwwww….

This woman foundthis lion hurt and about to die. She took him home and took care of him. When the lion was better she called the local zoo. This was the reaction she got when the lion saw her. Enjoy :)

http://www.telestereo.com/Archivos/video.html

Tags: Happy Easter.

Weekly Sentence #7

2008-03-17T14:35:00.000-07:00

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Each Saturday She will give you a set of six letters. A sentence
must be made from these letters. The letters today are:-IRELND.

An example of a sentence could be - Irene ravenously eats little
noodle dumplings. These letters MAY NOT be re-arranged.

IRELND

Here Is Mine:

IRISH "RICK" ENCOURAGED LIFE'S NEW DISCIPLES

Tags: Weekly Sentence #7

The Lovebug

2008-03-09T11:22:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone. I have had so much time to sit and think this weekend, I found myself wandering around In the past, somewhere that was both exhilirating and devastating at the same time! lol. If you, yourself pause, for a moment, and think back to your first love, Do you smile? or get that warm, and fuzzy feeling? Do you remember thinking, this is the real thing? The word Love is such a small word for such a huge meaning! lol.

Thinking back to mine, I remember feeling like a demented stalker, unable to think clearly or focus. I could feel my tummy churn like a washing machine on fast spin and that was just when I heard his name mentioned!. It was an obsession like no other. It was never straight forward In my world, not like the other's round about me. I was different.

I wasn't considered part of a group. An outsider In a small town that didn't accept newcomer's and quite obviously never would, and yet, there I was, completely smitten, head over heels In love. I was a secret. I was young and nieve. I played neil diamond's album The Jazz Singer over and over, secretly wishing, I wasn't a secret, that I could shout It from the rooftops. I was a girlfriend and I was so happy, It had It's downside though, It made me feel physically sick whenever I tried to kiss!!. lol. Not the most romantic scene for a kiss, with me having to either head to the nearest toilet, or try to get some water!! lol.

I plodded on until the Lovebug bit me once again, knowing this time was for keeps, didn't stop me from wondering for long enough, what If? but "If" never happened. It wasn't meant to be. When I heard the fateful words that he was getting married, I was quietly hauled back to my past, It was right there and then, that a full stop had been placed against us forever.

I have so many mixed feelings looking back. I am older and wiser and very content with my lot. It doesn't stop me pausing to remember or finding myself caught up In a dream where my memories can still run free. It IS better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all. Take Care, Back Soon.

Tags: The Lovebug

Weekly Sentence #6

2008-03-08T15:30:00.000-08:00

Click here to play: Weekly Sentence

Each Saturday She will give you a set of six letters. A sentence
must be made from these letters. The letters today are:- STANAD

An example of a sentence could be - Six turtles are napping
at dusk.

These letters MAY NOT be re-arranged.

STANAD

Here Is Mine:

Starving Tormented African's Need Aid Donations

Tags: Weekly Sentence #6

A Quiet Day

2008-03-08T14:36:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone,

Thank you all so much for popping over to see loopy loo! lol. There were a few technical Issue's that went way over the top of my head!! I usually manage to sort out little niggles or hiccups, but alas, not to be this time. I apologise for not getting round the journal's as much as I usually do, my mind just refuses to settle.I will get round them all very soon.

I have been struggling a lot last week, mainly with walking so today has been spent taking It easy. I long for the summer when I can hopefully get back to being "me" again. Getting tired of all the tests, Surprised they don't just hook me up to one big constant blood removing machine! lol. So greedy the amount they keep demanding! lol.

Anyway, I am not going to start babbling on about It until I get some good news. Just be ready for a "wee worry update". I will have to pop over to see Val now and get a look at those letters for this weeks Sentence. It just goes to show, that I have been slipping! Not winning this week just say's It all!!! lol. ;-) Back Soon, Take Care. xx

Tags: A Quiet Day

Welcome Big Sis!

2008-03-05T14:18:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone,

Just a wee quick entry, to ask for all you fabulous reader's, to pop over to my Big Sister's new journal called Loopy loo in from the cold and say hello to welcome her.

I was really surprised and yet, so pleased to see her here. I think It will be such a boost for her, with all you wonderful people.Team spirit and kindness are just two small pebbles In J-Land's ocean. Now, Have I done enough crawling? lol. Thanks. ;-)

p.s. she loves elephants!!

Take Care, Back Soon. xx

Tags: Welcome Big Sis!

Weekly Sentence#5

2008-03-01T13:41:00.000-08:00

Click here to play: Weekly Sentence

Each Saturday She will give you a set of six letters. A sentence
must be made from these letters. The letters today are:- APSTMS.
An example of a sentence could be - A pig sauntered toward my store.

These letters MAY NOT be re-arranged.

APSTMS

Here Is Mine:

Adventurous Passion Seductively Tickles My Senses

Tags: Weekly Sentence#5

" 'Ello, 'Ello 'Ello"...

2008-03-01T13:24:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone. I am delighted to win The Sentence Of The Week Award again!! How nice. It really cheered me up aswell. I have it displayed proudly In my sidebar, I think I may just empty my sidebar and start collecting these! lol. It's not been the best week so far! lol. What with worrying about Mr Man and just earlier having 2 policemen knocking on my front door!. I almost fainted, when I saw the black uniform's through the glass window part.

I was, of course wearing my jammies, dressing gown and slippers on opening the door! Typical! Anyway one of them said It was nothing serious but asked to come In. My heart was racing as I led them Into the kitchen. It transpired that the extremely old fruitcake of a woman that lives along the road from me had phoned them on my wee treasure!

I was rather speechless as he went on to say this nutty old so and so had accused her of picking the tops of her flowers. He said he never saw any tops lying around but had to look Into It! I spoke to my wee one In front of the officer's and she told them she hadn't done anything at all and I know when there Is truth or lies and I know that was the truth.

I couldn't really believe my ears that this was happening. This so called woman, phones the police every time someone walks up the public stairway past or beside her house. It's all open but she doesn't like anyone passing by and she also doesn't like children full stop. I once walked past her, to go to the post box just next to her house and she was very nice discussing the weather and her garden, after posting the letter, I returned to see her standing with her arms crossed, face scowling, muttering obscenities at me!!. I was only away 2 mins! lol.

I know I shouldn't think so little of her, when It Is quite plain to see that she Is not the full shilling, but one brick short of a wall, or a sandwich short of a picnic! lol. You get the Idea?

I can't help feeling so angry that I had to give our details over and yet we haven't done anything wrong. The police understood completely and said no further action would be taken. There was no action In the first place! Oh I'm really cross. I suggested that they look Into some kind of social worker because of her past enlightening them to the time she chased a 9yr old girl In her car!!! I also suggested they look at the number of times she has called the police as It was constant, and they said they would.

After they left I spoke with wee treasure and her friends and informed them not to go anywhere near the outside of her house again. I dont want to give her any reason to repeat this, I also hope she stays well away from me when I start doing my gardening In the spring, just In case my spade, fork, lawnmower or strimmer etc. accidently connects with her! lol.

Right! Rant over!! I feel so much better now. lol I'm determined not to let anyone drag me down so I think I will post the new sentence of the week to stay cheery.
Take Care, Back Soon.

Tags: 'Ello, 'Ello 'Ello ...

Strange But True!

2008-02-27T14:48:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone. It's been a very strange day Indeed! Apologies for not getting round the journal's to comment, but I will do my best to catch up over the weekend.Today, I got a call at work from Mister Man, who assured me he was fine, but had, had a little accident! I froze as he went on to say he had just crashed his bike and thought his arm was broken. I don't know who got the bigger fright! He was heading off to the local hospital to get It checked out so all I could do was wait.

He called back to say that he had broken his elbow! Ouch! Poor soul. As the story unfolded It was like watching one of those Strange But True programmes. You see, Mister Man had just got his new bike and this was the first day out on It. He had made a flask of coffee and planned his route. He was turning a corner and the bike front wheel skidded on some oil and he, and the bike fell. He got up as fast as he could and dragged the bike to the side.

The strange part Is truly unbelievable! My sis Rosebud and her man had decided there and then, to go to the exact location mister man had gone to, and as they drove, they saw the visor from the bike, two headlight covers and a mobile phone lying In the road. Rosebud's man stopped the car and picked up the Items, thinking he recognized them and on opening the mobile phone saw a picture of mister man smiling sitting on his bike.!!

Of course, they got the fright of their lives and looked everywhere for him, phoning all the numbers In his phone being careful not to alarm anyone. They even rang me at work and just asked If he was away on the bike somewhere today. I said yes I thought that's what he was doing and they hurried off the line! I thought It was odd but never got the chance to question It. They tried the hospital and my home, spending about 2 hours looking for him.

Meanwhile, Mister man had sat down In a quiet part of the country road, to have a cup of coffee as his arm was so sore and he had got a big fright. He eventually got back on the bike and headed for my parents house struggling with the clutch. He walked the last part of the way and was stunned to walk Into the drive, and up to the car, where my parents, Rosebud and her man were standing, He had said that he had just crashed and they told him they knew!

Luckily he Is In one piece. This could have been so much worse and for that, we are so thankful. We see It as some kind of warning and realise we have been let off lightly. It really does go to show, that we never really do know, what's round the corner!.
Take Care. Back Soon. xx

Tags: Strange But True!

Weekly Sentence #4

2008-02-23T12:53:00.000-08:00

Click here to play: Weekly Sentence

Each Saturday She will give you a set of six letters. A sentence
must be made from these letters. The letters today are: TPIWIS.
An example of a sentence could be - The proud Indian waits in silence.

These letters MAY NOT be re-arranged.

TPIWIS

Here Is Mine:

The Prince's Innappropriate Winking Infuriated Servants

Tags: Weekly Sentence #4

Guest Editor's Pick's

2008-02-23T00:44:00.000-08:00

Hello everybody. What can I say? Wow! What an honour to have been asked to be the Guest Editor this week. If you pop on over to the Magic Smoke, you can see my choices. There were so many to choose from, I struggled. I could, of course get used to a life of writing! lol so, for all you publisher's out there....."Hello" I am right here. lol. I only wish I could've picked double that amount, which of course, I will save for the next time I am chosen!!! ...... lol..

On a serious note, every Tuesday, when I pop over to see Lisa, I always get to meet a new cat from her fabulous Tuesday Tails where she tells us a little about one of her cats, every Tuesday, and boy, does that make my day. If I am ever lucky enough, to be able to afford my own cattery, then Lisa would be the first person, that I would go to for advice. You do so much for those cats Lisa, I hold you In such high esteem.

Well, It's been quite a week!!, after waddling around like some kind of duck, I popped Into the doc's for a wee bit of help and got sent for x-rays and now also have an Impending appointment with a Liver specialist, which Is brilliant, This "badboy liver" Is getting It! lol. I will get there at some point! Nothing has been allowed to drag me down this week, as It's been a very special thing for me personally, to have been asked to be a Guest Editor. Yip! Still makes me smile reading that! lol. I think that you are all wonderful.

I must go and let a bath work It's magic on my back, then I'm going to pop that kettle on and make a nice hot cup of tea. Changed day's from the bottle of wine and not remembering going out to the local nightclub to dance, looking like co-co the clown! One word for that Is...... Phew! ;-)

Take Care, Back Soon. xx

Tags: Guest Editor's Pick's

Weekly Sentence #3

2008-02-16T12:29:00.000-08:00

Click here to play:  Weekly Sentence

Each Saturday She will give you a set of six letters. A sentence
    must be made from these letters. The letters today are:
slepcd

An example of a sentence could be -Steven likes eating
purple cabbage daily. These letters MAY NOT be re-arranged.

SLEPCD

Here Is Mine:

Soulful Laughter Envelops people Combatting Depression

Tags: Weekly Sentence #3

Winning Feel's So Right! lol

2008-02-16T10:21:00.000-08:00

Hello, all you lovely people. Did any of you hear my screams? lol. Don't panic, Mister man wasn't throwing boiled eggs at me... No sireee, I was just elated to receive a first place award!. Yeeehaa, I have never, ever had anything like that before so I was a bit pleased.

Thank You so much Val and your fellow judge's for my Sentence Of The Week Award. I have displayed It proudly. I finished work last night and headed over to my parents' house armed with my pink scrabble and wee treasure. We were sleeping over as today, is my dad's birthday.

Happy Birthday Dad.

We sat up drinking tea, eating goodies and enjoying our favourite game. It was magic. We also watched a movie of wee treasure at christmas time a few years ago and a dancing one of her, and her cousin, shaking their stuff! lol. I am so pleased I captured those memories when I did. My parents adored them.

My dad Is 77 years old today and still puts everyone to shame with the amount of things he does! Fitting the kitchen and bathroom and hanging door's etc In his house! A lot of the family arrived to wish him well and he looked really pleased to see them all.

I'm not long home and have just sat down and It's teatime. I will sleep well tonight! lol. I will have to get comfy here and start whipping round all your journals now to catch up. So get the kettle on! lol I hope you are all well and having a wonderful weekend so far. ;-)

Take care. Back Soon. xx

Tags: Winning Feel's So Right! lol

Feeling Loved.

2008-02-14T15:04:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's Day everybody. I know It's very late but I still wanted to give you all some love! lol. I woke at the usual time 6.45am with the wonderfully loud ringing phone tone for my alarm! works every time! lol. I got a nice kiss, said good morning and Happy Valentine's Day, then crept out the bedroom and had the craziest Idea to make Mister Man a nice breakfast In bed. Hmmm knowing full well, he doesn't ever eat breakfast, I thought somehow today would be different and would be appreciated so much!

I got everything on the tray, the plate, cup, small vase with some flowers from my last week's bunch! lol and headed through to the room, only to be told In a very sleepy voice, "Aww Darling I can't eat that just now", "I will be sick", "If you put It In the kitchen, I will heat It up In the microwave later," to which I said "Okay love, no problem" Awww. I know he doesn't eat at that time of day, but It didn't stop me smiling on my way through to the kitchen with the tray, as I wondered how on earth he was going to manage putting his boiled eggs and soldiers In the microwave!!! lol That made my day! Wicked, I know but ever so funny and Ironic.

Bless his cotton socks though, I got a lovely bunch of red carnations and 2 cards, One was a wee joke one and one was a real beautiful and heartwarming one. Even my wee treasure got a card!! Hmm, wonder who that was of? Lucky lady.

I Hope you have all had a fabulous day.Sending Loads of Love to all you wonderful J-Landers. Take care, Back soon. xx

Tags: Feeling Loved.

The Future model! lol

2008-02-09T12:44:00.000-08:00

Saturday Again! and I have been suffering with writer's block and It has been driving me nuts! lol. I haven't been feeling great at all, been struggling with excruciating back pain and the only thing I wanted to do last night was moan, so instead of that I entered the "pet" competition and I have done the weekly sentence which I love. What a fabulous Idea. That got my thinking cap on and stopped me dwelling on It.

I can't wait to be "fixed" and get some of this excess weight off, It's dragging me down. There I go again moaning! Arghh! lol. I would have drank away my blues with a couple of glasses of wine before all this badboy liver nonsense! lol. I will have to go for It and really go to extreme measures shortly.....Hit the kitchen for some Horicks! lol.

On a positive note, I get more tests done next week so you never know, I could be walking around, upright in a very figure hugging little black dress with kitten heels, quicker than you can say "Summer's here"! lol. I can see myself as a future model right now! lol.

On a less positive note, I was saddened to hear of my mum and dad's elderly neighbour and friend David who died at home a few days ago. He was such a lovely man and my heart goes out to his wife Sally. Many years ago when I was a young teeny- bopper, they took one of our dogs' puppies and called him Barney. he was a black lab cross with beautiful white teeth and a very waggy tail! lol. I cycled along to their house a fair bit to see him and I was always made to feel so special.

They had huge walled gardens full of absolutely gorgeous flowers, plants and fruit trees. I loved walking round with them. Back in the house It would be juice and biccies! Mmm. A lovely couple. It is so nice for me to have had the chance to know them and now at least I am able to keep hold of those memories.

I was just handed a cup of tea from Mister Man! which was lovely. Wee treasure has finally left the house to go out to play. I will have to start looking for a new trampoline for her soon, for when the better weather comes In. I will also be looking for a rather large paddling pool for me! lol. I adore them.

I can almost feel the sun on my face thinking about it.The wonderful smell of the barbeques aswell, wafting up and down the gardens. Magic. Can't afford to go away anywhere this year, but If I manage to get all those goodies for the garden, and If the sun is shining, then It will be just as good being somewhere nice!. lol.

Have a good weekend everybody. Take Care. Back Soon. Love Pam xx

Tags: The Future Model! lol

My 2nd Nice Matters Award!

2008-02-09T12:19:00.000-08:00

Thank You so much for giving me The Nice matters Award Jenny. It's my second one and I am as proud as punch. You have really cheered me up. Thanks. I have one person I want to give this to and that is Donna - she always takes the time to leave wonderful comments and yet she is having such a hard time herself. Please pop along and say hello and check out her new journal: Atkins Adventures.

This award will be given to good blog friends and those that inspire good feelings.Those that care about others, that are there to lend support or those that are just a positive influence on our blogging world. It's down to you now Donna to choose between 1-6 people you want to give this wonderful award to. Well Done. xx

Tags: My 2nd Nice Matters Award!

Weekly Sentence

2008-02-09T10:04:00.000-08:00

Click here to play: Weekly Sentence

Each Saturday She will give you a set of six letters. A sentence
must be made from these letters. The letters today are:
TCRABC.

An example of a sentence could be - The chef roasted
a baby carrot. These letters MAY NOT be re-arranged.

Today's Letters: TCRABC

Here's Mine:

The Chorus Reached A Breathtaking Crescendo.

Tags: Weekly Sentence.

My Pet

2008-02-08T14:28:00.000-08:00

My Pet

I decided at the last minute to enter this week's competition. I wanted to take new pics but never got the chance this week. I hope nobody minds too much but here are my 3 gorgeous babies again. G-Cat, Oscar and Purdie. xx

I will hopefully be posting my next entry about my great big win on the Euromillions! lol. ;-)Take care, Back Soon. xx

Tags: My Pet

Nice Matters Award!

2008-02-05T13:32:00.000-08:00

I have just been given the above award by Yasmin and I am absolutely thrilled! Thank You so much Yasmin. I am honoured to consider myself your friend. You would have been one of my choices without question. You are such a kind person.

This is what this award is all about:

This award will be given to those that are just nice people, good blog friends and those that inspire good feelings. Those that care about others, that are there to lend support or those that are just a positive influence on our blogging world.

Now it falls on me, to pass it on to others whom I think deserve it. This is so hard, There are so many of you, that I cannot choose you all, but those I give it to also have to pass it on to others so, hopefully, anyone who doesn't receive this will from me, will end up getting It from someone else and very soon!.

Here are my choices:

Joann : Joann always leaves me wonderful comments, she is so kind and encouraging. I was made to feel really special by her when I first started out.Thank You Joann.x

Carol : Carol Is like the "Mamma" bear, with her kindness.After her recent trauma with the big brave Adam, I reckon this will cheer her up.Thank You Carol.x

Lori : Lori is one of life's troopers, she has a heart of gold and proved as much by giving me a chance to feel really good in J-Land. she Is willing to help other people at the drop of a hat. Thank You Lori.x

Jenny : Jenny loves her music and Is so passionate about It, she always highlights her best friend Trina. I think that speaks volumes. Her trips to the festivals are extremely entertaining. Thank You Jenny.x

Amanda : Amanda needs readers to give her a boost as she has such a fantastic sense of humour, she struggles through life with poor health and still battle's on.I received some lovely email's from her when I started up. Thank You Amanda.x

Andy : Andy Is one of life's Gentlemen. He has graced my journal from day one and still cares enough to comment. He has lifted my spirits on many occassions.Thank You Andy.x

Please stop by all the above journals and wish them well. Thank You so much again. It means such a lot. Take Care, Back Soon. xx

Tags: Nice Matters Award

Weekly Sentence

2008-02-03T12:13:00.000-08:00

Click here to play: Weekly Sentence

Each Saturday She will give you a set of six letters. A sentence
must be made from these letters. The letters today are:
DSPWAS

An example of a sentence could be - Don't Shoot Pool With A Shark!

These letters MAY NOT be re-arranged.

Today's Letters: DSPWAS

Here's Mine:

Delightful Special Poetry Writing And Stories

Tags: Weekly Sentence

Some More Poems.

2008-02-02T14:20:00.000-08:00

Here are a few more poems from my book, A little cheerier too! lol.xx

My Wee Treasure

It takes a lot to be understanding,
It takes a lot to have such faith,
In the past I had nothing,
But with you, I now have strength.

You have shared all my troubles,
You have stayed with me throughout,
All the times that i have struggled,
With all my pain and all my doubts.

And now I've learned to be more open,
Having faith strong enough for two,
Knowing that you'll be by my side.
I'm giving all my love to you.

It takes a lot to hold out your arms
And welcome strangers In.
Now I know that I'm In your arms,
My life can now begin.

Little Lady

Little lady, You've gone and I don't know what I should do.
I'm sorry, that I've not been straight with you.
I kept back something, that I could never say,
And now I'm going to tell you,
Because I can't be without you one more day.

And that's, I love you. I miss you
I want to share my life with you again.
Little lady, please forgive me,
I hope that we'll be more than just friends.

I'll never leave you, or deceive you,
I'll always be there when you need me.
Little lady i ask you please.......Once again.

Treasure

Cuddly toys and a china doll,
A picture of simba hangs on the wall.
Disney books all over the floor,
Her dressing gown hangs on the back of the door.

This loveable squeezable daughter of mine
demands my attention all of the time.
She'll bite and she'll nip and she'll slap really hard.
My voice echoes loudly "No Treasure" "That's bad".

At just 2 years old, she's too clever for me,
With "Thank you" and "Sorry" and "Oh Mama Please".
When i cough, she appears and slaps my back.
When I shout she protests "No Mummy! "Smack?"

On my knee for a cuddle, Its "Mummy", "Love you".
If she's just been in trouble, It's a big kiss too.
My baby's a charmer, with huge blue eyes,
A beautiful smile and comical sighs.

Tags: Some More Poems.

Poetry

2008-02-02T13:58:00.000-08:00

Saturday night, Juice in hand!!! lol changed day's.
I have decided to share some more poems.
I hope you enjoy them and will let me know what you think.

Distant Sun

You never know what tomorrow will bring.
Just as sure as there's summer, there's spring.
All we seem to do is live in hope
And do our best to try and cope.

You never know you've loved until you've lost.
You give away far too much of your trust.
We can watch all our friends crying,
But close your eyes to our world cos it's dying.

Our world is now very frightening,
It's so sad to see it this way,
All that's left is all of this fighting,
All that we can do now is pray.

You never know when it's your turn to go,
Just as sure as there's winter, there's snow,
We can watch all the bird's flying,
But close your eyes to our world cos It's dying.

Sunless Day's

When your heart is beating fast,
Your mind, It wanders to the past.
All that's left of yesterday.
Goodbye my friend so far away.

The love we had, has gone for good.
You never knew or understood,
What life was like for me inside
And how I felt just like a child.

You took great pride in teaching me
The things in life, which were meant to be.
It's such a shame you never said,
What was soon to lie ahead.

Goodbye

It's time to move on now.
There's nothing left for me here.
A new beginning, A fresh start,
An open road, A goodbye tear.

It's time to move on now,
Leaving won't be so hard to do.
I know if I leave now,
Then my dream will come true.

I'm sorry if this will hurt you,
But, there's no other way I know,
I won't ever forget you.
The hardest part in leaving,
Is letting you go.

Tags: Poetry

Taking It Easy.

2008-02-02T09:17:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was a bit of a nightmare! The wind here has been dreadful and had blown away my wee treasure's trampoline along loads of garden's and when we got to it, It was impaled on a washing pole totally destroyed. Luckily It never hurt anyone or smashed any window's. I should have dismantled It a while back so I only have myself to blame.

Things got a little worse when I slipped on my path wearing silly boots and hurt my back, I was sore and physically sick so I had to turn back from heading to work. I had made it a good part of the way there aswell! typical! I slept for hours yesterday and have stayed in my pyjamas taking it easy.

I feel a lot better today and have spent almost the whole day stopping by loads of journals. It's been really interesting. Some were funny some were sad and a few were heartbreaking to read. It made me want to push my arms through the computer and squeeze these people with the biggest hugs possible. Their courage and strength left me stuck for words in total admiration.

Everybody does have problems, granted, of one sort or another I know, but these people are on another level, fighting a different battle. I have had a few strange looks here today as I constantly re-filled cups with tea and coffee without being asked! very much a tea drinker when I get upset! lol.

I looked through my old book of poems I wrote ages ago and thought who better to share them with than my fellow J-Landers! I went through a time of trying to write songs and managed a few tunes to go with the words, but I never did anything with them. I wrote them all in my big poetry book and kept them safe through all the years of moving from house to house.

The one I will share today was after I had been on a day trip with Mister Man and my Wee Treasure to the Zoo for the day. I had loved going to the zoo on many previous occassions but this particular day was to be my saddest. I managed to get through the day for the sake of the wee one but it was hard. When I got home, I just had to write down how I felt and I didn't settle until I had done it.

Easily Forgotten

Pacing up and down, trapped in a zoo,
this is so wrong, for a big cat like you.
Your eyes they will haunt me, staring and sad
confined to a small cage, I would go mad.

I wish I could free you, just open the door
let you run wild, to hunt and explore.
I tell you I'm sorry and say It out loud
I weave In and Out of the gathering crowd.

I make my way down to the chimpanzee's
to see them swinging up high in the tree's.
There's one large lady, lying in the hay,
her eye's tell the story, No-one will play.

I feel your lonliness, I understand
I want to sit beside you and hold your hand.
I tell you I'm sorry through the tears that I cry.
I blow you a kiss and wave you goodbye.

Tags: Peace and Quiet.

Purdie and Oscar

2008-01-28T14:32:00.000-08:00

I decided to give Purdie and Oscar a bit of the limelight since G-Cat had a page all to himself! lol. Here are my Babies.

Purdie came to us luckily through a phonecall to the local cattery when I was looking for a kitten. The lady told me there were no kittens ready to be rehomed at that time but a beautiful small cat was looking for a new home, as she had become destructive ripping carpets and scratching at doors because she hated being home by herself. Her owner was rehoming her as she lived in private accommodation.

I popped over to see her in her own home and dropped to my knees on the carpet when i saw her. I fell in love with her instantly. After several hours I took her home! It took a lot of time and gentle persuasion for her to come out from behind the couch and trust us but eventually we got there. I made it a house rule to always leave the doors open and she never once scratched.

Purdie was rather posh when we first got her and would look down on everyone even turning her back to us and raising her head! Very funny to watch. She will be 9yrs old soon and is doing well for her breed, she is ballinese. I am sure whoever named her "Purdie" did so because of the sheer volume of her purr! It transpired that this home was to be her 3rd! and it will be most definately her last.

Oscar was chosen at the cattery several weeks later when Purdie had settled in, as this was to be company for her aswell as a promised pet for my wee treasure. Oscar in fact chose us .He stared at my wee one and she was really taken with this and decided he was the one.
He was certainly a character asa baby, swiping everything from any surface in front of his paws! My fags and lighter was a favourite at that time. He grew into a medium sized tom but never showed aggression at all. he actually acted gay and everybody commented that he "minced" instead of strutting, but I didn't care if he was gay or straight. He was my boy. The funny thing is, he is more "manly" now he has been neutered! Strange boy! lol

Purdie and Oscar are a team and get on like a brother and sister. I would be lost without them.

Take Care, Back Soon. xx

Tags: Purdie and Oscar

Progress At Last!

2008-01-27T07:17:00.000-08:00

Hello. Thank You so much for all your kind comments. It feels like such a long time since I have been here. I will do my best to pop round everyone and catch up. I am getting there slowly but surely. Had some test results back, The best one, ruling out anything sinister which is amazing. I have lost a good bit of weight due to the water tablets I am on, making every day life so much easier.

I had to giggle when my doctor phoned me at teatime on Friday to give me my results of yet another test, when I was on the bus!!! I got some odd looks. He is still very concerned that my thyroid is not behaving and thinks this could be what's causing my bad boy liver to be so swollen. I've to go back in 2 weeks for more blood tests and to up my dose again!! If it doesn't sort it, I will get more advanced tests and be referred to a specialist.

I'm not worried anymore. I've accepted that, what will be, will be and that's that. There are far too many people worse of than me. Now enough of the doom and gloom, lol, onto a more shocking, sweeping statement, I hope you are all seated for this......I went to Rosebud's birthday party last night (Happy Birthday Rosebud) and never touched a drop of alcohol!!!!. lol. I have a mental picture of everybody reading this, reaching for a chair! lol.

Nobody has told me that I have to avoid it, but I have followed my gut instinct since all this happened and I haven't touched a drop. What an eye opener last night watching everybody!!! I didn't realise so many people swayed as much while under the influence. I found myself doing it with them!

I was a bit like a fish out of water for a while and so many people tried to persuade me to have just "one" but I stood my ground. I want my health back more than anything. I don't want to see another pineapple, lemonade and ice for a while though! lol.

I loved the feeling of getting up this morning and not having a hangover! No booze? No ciggies? At this rate, I will be packing my case to head off to visit the Sister's Of St Francis!! lol. Take Care, Back Soon. xx

Tags: Progress At Last!

Life Is A Rollercoaster

2008-01-19T13:22:00.000-08:00

Today has been the quietest birthday I've ever had. Got a lovely big chocolate cake and some nice goodies and cards which were really appreciated.

On the down side, I've just not been able to enjoy it. It's been a rather awful week. I went back to the doc's and got more tests done yesterday. Weight has ballooned to a scary degree. I told the doc that I have thrown the towel in, given up, can't take it any more. I explained I was struggling to breathe let alone walk! Not me at all. This bad boy liver of mine needs beaten with a stick! lol. I have to laugh cos my emotions are all over the place and I cry constantly for no reason.

The doc was good. There had been a problem with my thyroid still being way too underactive, so he has upped the dose. He is a good man and I think he understood that I was at the end of my tether. To have gone up 4 and a half stone was a shock in itself, It's just so desperately uncomfortable!

I was given more tablets to take, making that a total of 4 a day from now on! Hmmm. On a positive note I was receiving a couple of birthday calls earlier when one turned out to be a lady from the hospital!!! and I am booked in for this coming Tuesday

Funny to be having a cup of cocoa to celebrate my day with!! lol.and of course another slice of cake! lol. Sorry for being a wee whingy pants but I thought I should "update". I have enjoyed going round the journals leaving comments and will continue to do so, even If I don't post. I will probably look for something funny to put on again until things start getting better. I hope you are all having a great weekend so far.

Take Care Back Soon xx

Tags: Life Is A Rollercoaster

Sisters Of St Francis

2008-01-16T15:21:00.000-08:00

This made me smile earlier! I have altered some of the words so as not to offend anyone, It's safe to read now! lol.

> >> A man is driving along a highway when he sees a sign:

> >>     SISTERS OF ST. FRANCIS
> >>     HOUSE OF ILL REPUTE
> >>     10 MILES

> >>     He thinks it must have been a figment of his imagination and drives on
> >>     without a second thought. . . but soon he sees another sign, which
> >>     says:

> >>     SISTERS OF ST. FRANCIS
> >>     HOUSE OF ILL REPUTE
> >>     5 MILES

> >> Suddenly, he begins to realize that these signs are for real. Then
> >> he drives past a third sign saying:

> >>     SISTERS OF ST. FRANCIS
> >>     HOUSE OF ILL REPUTE
> >>     NEXT RIGHT

> >>     His curiosity gets the best of him and he pulls into the drive. On
> >>     the side of the parking lot is a stone building with a small sign next to
             the door, reading:

> >> SISTERS OF ST. FRANCIS

> >>     He climbs the steps and rings the bell. The door is answered by a
             nun in a long black habit who asks,
> >>     "What may we do for you, my son?" He answers, "I saw your signs
             along the highway, and was interested in possibly doing business . . . "

> >>     "Very well my son. Please follow me."
             He is led through many winding passages and is soon quite
             disoriented. The nun stops at a closed door and tells the man,
> >>     Please knock on this door . . . "

> >>     He does as he is told and another nun in a long habit, holding a tin cup,
             answers the door. This nun instructs, "Please place $100 in the cup, then go
             through the large wooden door at the end of this hallway . . . "

> >>     He gets $100 out of his wallet and places it in the second nun's cup
            . . . he trots eagerly down the hall and slips through the door, pulling it
            shut behind him . .

> >> As the door locks behind him, he finds himself back in the parking lot,
> >> facing another small sign:

> >>     GO IN PEACE .
> >>     YOU HAVE JUST BEEN "HAD" BY THE SISTERS OF ST. FRANCIS.
> >>     SERVES YOU RIGHT, YOU SINNER

Tags: Sisters Of St Francis

A Wee Worry Update!

2008-01-16T10:00:00.000-08:00

Hello all you lovely people. As always, my mood lifted after reading all your comments. Thank You so much. I have had mixed feelings about today. Went to the doc's this morning and got this "bad boy" checked out. Never got the answers I was looking for. Tried to persuade him to give me a wee liquid solution to desolve it, then I'd be on my way!! lol.

He just laughed then quietly explained the "bad boy" was in fact the end of my liver! Hmmm. I have to get tests done at the hospital. He has put through an urgent request so hopefully It will be quick.

I was a bit wobbly and teary and extremely sore after he had finished so I let work know that I had to go home to bed and that's exactly what I did. Got all cosied up under the covers and slept for hours! I did totally freak out and had hoped for a different result, but hey, what will be will be and it must've turned out this way for a reason.

Since these tests might not be for a week or two yet, I am going to carry on as normal with my fav journal. Hopefully finding something a lot happier to talk about! lol ;-) Take Care, Back Soon. xx

Tags: A Wee Worry Update!

A Wee Worry!

2008-01-15T12:38:00.000-08:00

This will probably be one of my shortest entries and which just so happens to be the one week I wanted to have a good giggle reminising about the past. Unfortunately, I have to focus entirely on the present, as I am not very well. I am a bit shell shocked as I have found a lump on my side that doesn't belong there. It has no free entry pass and is neither on my side's guest list! lol.

I will be getting it examined tomorrow as it is causing me a lot of discomfort. I have all sorts of scenarios running theough my mind and had an extremely sleepless night last night, so for the time being, I will bid you all a fond goodnight and hope and pray that all will work out well. Take Care Back Soon. Love Pam xx

Tags: A Wee Worry!

Chuffed To Bits!

2008-01-13T13:45:00.000-08:00

I checked my emails for any new comments yesterday and was completely stunned to read that i had been chosen as the Guest Editor's Choice. I just sat smiling and bubbling! lol. A big thank you to Lori for choosing me. You can find her at: :http://journals.aol.com/helmswondermom/DustyPages/ and for the other choices you can find them at: http://journals.aol.com/journalseditor/magicsmoke/.

I was invited to my friends house yesterday for a meal, some wine and a sing song. What a fabulous time i had. Thanks L-A. You are a star. I had her homemade chicken curry which as always was astounding. The table was full with Garlic bread, popadoms, naan bread, and countless other goodies. It was Mr Man's birthday last week and mine next week so this was our treat. We then got presented with a huge birthday cake and blew out the candles together! Good job as there were loads! lol.

I was so pleased that we came home at 9pm sober, so i did what i do best, got over excited and poured a wee glass to celebrate, then another and yes! In true "me" style, I woke this morning to the feeling that riverdance was being performed across my pillow! Hmmm. One day I will learn! lol. I went to the shop and bought a paper and rolls and made a cooked breakfast for us all. Now as you can see from "D"'s fabulous picture, she has caught me in a superb light! lol

I have taken it easy today and was pleased to be watching the new Dancing On Ice programme which has started again. Once it has finished, I will be retiring to bed. I hope you all have a good week.

Thank You to everyone who has left a comment. I am utterly thrilled and grateful.You are all pretty wonderful people ;-) Take Care, Back Soon. xxx

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Settling In.

2008-01-10T12:08:00.000-08:00

Photo Shoot #124

Hello everybody, I decided to take a few pics of our new addition to the family and enter the above one in the "Close Up" Photo Shoot, (If I can figure out what to do! lol) as he seems to be settling in a bit more now. He seems to like the Remote Control! and camera! Hmm! lol.

We have come to an understanding at last, that he goes out to play and meets up with his street pals at night and I call on him just after 6am in the morning and he comes running back in for breakfast and a good long sleep. My wee treasure has said she doesn't want to change his name as it would be cruel, so the name Ginger Cat stays or to me, (G-Cat) lol.

Take Care. Back Soon. xx

Tags: Settling In.

Feeling Good

2008-01-06T14:23:00.000-08:00

Had a great lie-in this morning. G-Cat asked to leave the premises at 1am! lol. I heard him being let back in at 8am, so I turned over and nodded back off til 10.30! Wow. Not done that in ages must have needed it. I had a cuppa then set to work dismantling the tree which by rough calculation had a minimum of four thousand decorations on it! My nephew arrived and cut my wee treasures hair. He is an exceptionally good Hairdresser. What a lovely job he made of it.

He is so talented and kind. He offered to cut mine aswell. I jumped at the chance seeing as i still resemble an African Bushwoman! lol He gave me a Graduated Bob. It took years of me. A whole lot shorter but so much better. I decided I would make a real effort with my appearance and pluck my eyebrows too. Trying my hardest to make them both even!! I just hope the redness goes away for the morning! and that was with using loads of cream aswell! maybe should've done them a while ago! lol.

Then into a bath to finish off. I was exhausted when i was done! Lol. Pampering is hard work!

I made a wonderful Roast Chicken dinner with all the trimmings earlier today, so I popped into the livingroom a wee while ago with a chicken sandwich for Mr man. He was checking the lotto ticket and went pale, as he got the first 3 numbers in a row! lol. He should've kept going! lol. We are Totally chuffed to win £10 though.

Getting closer to making my millions! lol.

Take Care Back Soon.

Tags: Feeling Good

Boy Trouble! lol

2008-01-05T14:39:00.000-08:00

Thanks "D" for the pic.It describes my house so well at the moment! lol

I had a giggle reading the first line of some of my entries! I didn't have a clue what i was doing back in August when i started so i didn't have the dates for some. Maybe just aswell! lol. What with the rude chicken alarm and confessions of having too much wine then actually going out dancing! Hard to believe that was me! lol.

I have had a fairly quiet day today. Went shopping this morning, cooked lunch and dinner and kept on top of the dishes. Not in the mood for much tonight as I'm exhausted. Mr Ginger Cat is to blame.

I think he is having a laugh. Ever since we discovered he is a boy, he has been really misbehaving! Hmmm. He now wakes me up in the early hours, by launching himself on the windowsill and climbing behind the curtain and blinds!. I get up and let him out then when I get back into bed and i'm just drifting off, he launches himself at the front door like a springer spaniel and cries really loud to get back in!

I have tried everything to stop this, I even taped up the curtains, removed the blinds, kept him awake longer during the day, fussed over him more, locked him out the room as a final resort but he cried and scraped to get back in! lol Nothing stops him. My other half is at the end of his tether too. Funny how he didn't do this at all until we started calling him "son" and "wee man" etc!

Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated. I'm convinced this is him when we aren't looking! lol

Take Care. Back Soon. xx

Tags: Boy Trouble! lol

Heavy Snow

2008-01-04T14:20:00.000-08:00

Woke up this morning at 5am. The room was a lot brighter than usual, Peeked through the blinds and recoiled at the blanket of snow. Wow. looked amazing, but how on earth was I going to get to work? Not another bus nitemare journey! Arghhhh! lol Nope. Thankfully. After a while I got a message along with the rest of the town, not to go anywhere unless the journey was absolutley necessary. The local news on the radio was full of Lorry's at a standstill, roads closed and buses being cancelled! The last bit made me say "phew"! out loud as I made my toast and tea.

I decided that I would tidy up, then make a pot of homemade soup. I put the fire on, woke my wee treasure then I had breakfast gripped by the latest weather news. Even though I was off, I was still concerned for other people who had to be out there. Snow Is beautiful to look at and play in but for me, personally, I don't like travelling in it. No thanks. It's far too scary for me.

Changed the bedding and did 3 loads of washing. There was enough there to frighten the french! lol. I did something I haven't done for so long, I went for a lie down at 1pm until 3.30pm and I felt so much better for it. I felt guilty for not being at work but this was the second day in a row when these decisions were taken out of my hands. I played a game with my wee treasure and we had a laugh which was nice then I found myself lost on here adding pics to my profile and I have thoroughly enjoyed It. As I fast approach the 1000 mark on the counter, I'm loving J-Land so much. Take Care. Back Soon. xx

Tags: Heavy Snow

Team Spirit

2008-01-04T13:50:00.000-08:00

Had an absolute nitemare journey home from work last night. We had been told there was a severe weather warning in place stating there would be a heavy snowfall. Yes! they were correct! lol. I left work and headed round to the bus stop and waited and waited for over an hour on the bus but even though I could no longer feel my feet, I was so grateful to be going home. I had heard that my town had been brought to a standstill with the traffic lights jammed on red and black Ice and huge tailbacks.

In the bus shelter I spoke to a young girl who had been waiting there an hour before me, poor wee soul. Another girl arrived and an older man who was an ex bus driver started putting us at ease saying there had to be at least one more bus still to arrive. there were very few tyre tracks on the road and enormous snowflakes almost blinding me. We all kept each other going and I reassured the younger girl not to panic as I had earlier won some cash on a scratch card that would cover a chippy! lol, she laughed but was so cold.

I felt part of a group as we all stuck together in the eerie silence looking out at the empty streets. I was secretly scared and very cold but I couldn't change It, so I had to just stay calm and wait. Three buses appeared all going the other way. I thought the wee girl was going to cry so I offered to persuade the next bus to change the name to our destination and pay the ex bus driver to take over! My heart skipped a beat when our bus finally showed. Our spirits lifted.

I did everything but kiss the driver. We were all sighing relief when my happiness was short lived, he decided to take off like a rocket, bearing in mind, we were on black Ice and couldn't see the road properly for the snow, he kept that up all the way home!. The ex bus driver who was sitting in front of me was lost for words also. I hid my eyes on several of the roads and over a bridge. Thankfully we arrived safely although I'm quite sure how. I bid farewell to the wee team and tried several taxi numbers before being successful. I arrived home at 7.40pm and got dried off, jammies on, something to eat then went to bed. Hope I never experience that again. Any wonder I need hair dye? lol. xx

Tags: Team Spirit

Happy New Year

2008-01-01T05:53:00.000-08:00

That's the first picture I have added to one of my stories lol! I am going to try and brighten up my pages from now on. Well folks, 2008 eh? I wonder what joys will bestow us this year! As long as we have our health, then that's the main thing, Family, including my 3 little darling cats are of course a very close second.

We all spent an amazing night last night doing our own individual thing in the run up to midnight. My other half was chatting away online, My wee treasure was watching dvd's in her room and I was singing my wee heart out to the singstar discs in the livingroom. Fot those of you who don't know what singstar is, It's basically karaoke with the object of the game being to earn the highest score and name, thus being "singstar"which I happily achieved a few times! lol

My wee treasure and I had made up some lovely party food and set it all out in the kitchen in case we had visitors. We also got tucked in! lol. I paced myself with alcohol, sticking only to bacardi and loads of diet coke.

My eldest Sister, Nephew and Niece arrived around 10ish and we all had a great time singing, while my other half entertained us on the guitar, which I must say, was extremely impressive! We all gathered in a circle and joined hands at 12 for a heart warming rendition of Auld lang Syne. It was one of the best night's in a long time.

Today has been quiet, The dinner is cooking in the oven and the table will be set shortly, Only really two things to do now. One is to wish you all a Very Happy and Healthy New Year and the second is to find a new name for Ginger cat! It was mentioned last night that "she" looked far too big to be a girl! I laughed as I insisted she was definately a girl until I said "Okay, I will double check" and G.Cat is now my little boy! lol.

I did wonder why my other male cat called Oscar was always being chased! and my wee girl Purdie was less than impressed! I just thought madam was trying to be the boss! Well "Madam" is now " Monsieur" and if anyone has any suggestions for a "wee boy's" name then please feel free to share! lol. Take Care. Back Soon. xx

Tags: Happy New Year

"The Lift"

2007-12-28T11:35:00.000-08:00

Woke up with a sore back today and had to come home from work early because of It. Karma calling I think! A lot easier now after paracetamol, hot cuppa's and plenty of Quality Street. Going to go for a hot bath in a bit. Decided to scrap my last entry as I didn't want reminded of my bad behaviour and also didn't feel worthy of comments. For those who did post... Thank You. Decided to think of happier times. One in particular was a day on holiday a couple of years back.

There was a lot of my family there and one morning my nephew decided we should try "The Lift" from Dirty Dancing! Hmmm. A challenge, If ever I heard one! Best place we both agreed on was In the pool. Pity It was the afternoon and a good few people were soaking up the sunshine, enjoying the peace. Well, not for long! lol. We tried and tried and even with the whole gravity thing supposedly making It easier, It just wasn't working, I flew to the sides and crashed under the water and that was when I was lucky enough to get In the air! Holding the ballerina come aeroplane pose was almost impossible.

Every time he tried to lift me, I squealed as I felt his thumbs going through my ribs! and we couldn't stop laughing. I didn't remember Baby and Johnny having so much bother! Gosh when I think of those poor people spectating, not the prettiest of sights! I do know, that I can't remember the last time I laughed so much and whenever I remember back, It makes me smile. It was a very funny thing to do In a pool. The next time you go swimming, give It a go and see If you can manage It. If nothing else, you are sure to get a good laugh. Right on that fine note, I'm off for my nice relaxing bath now. Take Care. Back Soon. xx

Tags: The Lift

Merry Christmas

2007-12-23T09:20:00.000-08:00

Merry christmas & Happy New Year

Well. that's the last of the shopping almost done! lol. I have tomorrow after work to grab anything that I have missed, I bought Double Cream in my food shopping, so I must remember Brandy Snaps! It's one of my favourite christmas goodies, The other is Chocolate Liqueurs, mmmm. I don't buy them for myself though! I spend weeks letting the household know that's what I want!. Oh and I have asked for a teapot aswell this year! Pushing the boat out a bit there I think! lol. Time to love you and leave you now.

I Hope You all have a wonderful time. Lots of Love and Kisses, Pam xxx

A Wee Something To Make You Smile!

Subject: Things that are difficult to say when you're drunk

a) Innovative
b) Preliminary
c) Proliferation
d) Cinnamon
Things that are VERY difficult to say when you're drunk...
a) Specificity
b) British Constitution
c) Passive-aggressive disorder
d) Transubstantiate
Things that are ABSOLUTELY IMPOSSIBLE to say when you're drunk...

a) Thanks, but I don't want to sleep with you.
b) Nope, no more booze for me.
c) Sorry, but you're not really my type.
d) No kebab for me, thank you.
e) Good evening officer, isn't it lovely out tonight?
f) I'm not interested in fighting you.
g) Oh, I just couldn't - no one wants to hear me sing.
h) Thank you, but I won't make any attempt to dance, I have no co-ordination. I'd hate to look like a fool.
i) Where is the nearest toilet? I refuse to vomit in the street.
j) I must be going home now as I have work in the morning.

Tags: Merry Christmas

Depression

2007-12-22T14:20:00.000-08:00

This Is something that has been playing on my mind for a while now, You know the old saying "better out than In"? Well.... here goes. At this time of year, when we are all getting festive, busily doing our cards, shopping, baking etc. There always seems to be someone, somewhere who has reached so far down, there can be no return for them. I get so frustrated and just want to do something to find these people and beg them to rethink. It always seems to be such an impossible task that has ended so tragically for some of my friends, One in particular, a very good friend indeed and It shook my world to hear that he hung himself just over a year ago. Totally out of the blue. He was such a gentle caring person. Depression Is such a cruel and hard battle. From my own personal experience a while back, at that time, the feelings were overwhelming and the want and the desire to stop It all, were massive. So easy to shut off, curl up and sneak off.

I was lucky. I'm here. What about the rest of the people out there? There are always things thrown at us, that makes us feel unbearable grief, and then, just when we think It can't get much worse...It does! It gets you again and sometimes again after that. A few very wise people guided me through some pretty awful times, with little sayings and thoughts that I would grab hold of and ponder on for ages. There are choices, we all know that. Everyone has their own personal demons to face throughout their lifetime and I believe we are all here for a reason and we are all tested. Mind though, Whoever wrote the test paper for that one ought to be smacked round the ears really hard! lol.

I am a firm believer that you can only reach total rock bottom once in your life. You may come close again, but strength and determination and many other factors seem to take the reigns, like family and friends etc. Without sounding like some kind of preacher, I, empathise with anyone who feels so low, at this time of year especially, and I, urge anyone In this position, to reach out to someone who can help. There Is always someone, somewhere, who knows and recognises those same thoughts. Christmas can be what you make It. If you need someone, Please, I urge you. Take just one step and speak out. Writing in a journal can be such a boost so go on, give It a go, You have nothing to lose!

I would finally like to share this poem with you all, as I think It speaks volumes and hope It can show anyone else in this position, that they are not alone. I am especially proud, that my sister who has been battling depression has written this. It's absolutely beautiful, and Sheila? for each day that passes, You will get stronger and happier and more confident. Well Done. Lots of Love. Your wee sis Pam xx

It is always darkest before the dawn

When all around is confusion and no-one understands
The blackness becomes tempting free from every sound

Gently floating softly towards a warmer place
stress, strain and worry no longer etch your face

Then quietly creeps in morning the blackness starts to fade
the sun shines brightly and youre suddenly in shade

As seratonin balances the darkness of your mind
the hope for the future is easier to find

So when you think life's over and you would like to slip away
remember mental illness is like the light of day

Strength to travel through the night will bring its own reward
It's always darkest before the dawn believe me, I am right.

Tags: Depression

Almost Kidnapped! lol

2007-12-18T14:28:00.000-08:00

I was reminded earlier of this wee incident from the past, so I thought It only fair that I share it with you all. Possibly not one of my better Ideas!. Now, lol, try and not judge too much, please bear in mind....I'd had a few, and thought I was doing the right thing!

After a rather hectic time at work a while back, I agreed to go to a wee party afterwards to unwind and have a wee dram. Hmmm. Around 4.30am when things were in full swing...In otherwards I'd just finished doing the dishes and giving out my usual lecture on steeping pots, I was ushered out the kitchen and and into the livingroom where people were singing and dancing and some even sleeping, I was handed a rather large glass and plonked next to my wonderfully gay friend who began to tell me a story I kind of wished he hadn't!

He started off telling me about his neighbour's dog who was being very badly treated. He told how the owners shouted, smacked and beat the poor thing with a stick and locked it in the shed. He said the welfare people had called but nothing happened. Wrong thing to tell me at the best of times but after booze?. Oh dear. We had another few drinks and talked more. We hatched a plan. Kidnap was the only way. We decided that the dog would be far better off with me and as for my other half? well, he would just have to get used to it, As for the cats? them too. We covered all options really.

The taxi was called. The rain was battering down outside and we told the other partygoers we were just popping out and would be back in a bit! We asked the taxi driver If we could bring a dog back in his taxi and with a puzzled look he said yes and we got his card! lol Goodness knows what he must have thought! We arrived at the house in question and crept behind the style in the garden. We only had one umbrella and the rain was horrendous. The ground was so muddy and slippy. Oh! I shudder, thinking back.

We were whispering about how I would be the best person to tiptoe to the shed to release the dog. I could hear giggling as I crept towards the shed. I shooshed him and felt I was starring in an episode of Cagney and Lacey! Damn it! The shed was locked as I pulled at the door. I did several kissy noises making certain there was no pet inside!.

We hadn't planned for that!. So the only other reasonable, next manoevre was, of course, to go and ring the bell and ask If the dog was being kept in the shed and If it was being badly treated and lastly to ask If they wanted to keep It, as I could take it home there and then!. Oh dear god! I can't believe I did it!. My friend was past hysterical hiding In the bushes under the umbrella, as I slid across the mud and rang the doorbell

To my absolute horror, one of those really loud musical doorbells echoed round the whole street and lights started going on everywhere. I felt slightly uneasy but the drink gave me courage and I stood my ground, I was on a mission to save an abused defenseless animal. As a very awkward conversation took place with the owner, The woman answered my questions. She said the dog was sleeping in the kitchen and nervously said nobody hit it. When I asked if she wanted me to take it home, she hesitated then said no, It was okay!

I said "Right then!" I will be off now but If I hear of anything bad happening to that dog like it being locked in the shed or hit with a stick ever again, I will be back!. I asked her If she understood and she said "Yes" I said "goodnight" and walked away in the opposite direction of the house and my friend in the bushes. Once her lights went off, My friend ran round the corner to where I was. It took him a while to get himself together. I was soaking, but even though I was pretty well oiled with booze, I felt a small sense of relief that hopefully I had put the wind up her a bit. Lol. Awww The Good Old Day's!

We got our taxi back to the party and had another couple of wee dram's to get over the trauma of it all. My friend said he never once heard the dog being hit or locked in the shed after that! which has continued to this day.It turned out to be a fantastic result! Drastic measures, I know, but hey, Everything Is meant for a reason! lol xx

Tags: Almost Kidnapped! lol

Getting Cosy!

2007-12-18T07:44:00.000-08:00

Firstly, can I just say a very big Thank You to everybody that left a comment or email message for me. I almost keeled over when I saw how many I had. For one horrible moment I thought, while under the Influence, I had struck up some kind of deal with guido trying to make it big, in my bid for fame and success! lol. Alas, that was not the case, considering I stumbled on guido's page by pure accident, I was just lucky enough to be on the right page at the right time! lol and boy! am I glad I did!. There will be a rather large glass of either Brandy and Lemonade or Bacardi and Diet Coke raised in the air towards you all on Christmas morning lol.

Decided to miss the usual Christmas Tipple last year until way after dinner! Hmmmm. What a silly move! lol. I was too stuffed and exhausted to lift the glass let alone attempt to take part in the usual Christmas day extremely competitive games, quizzes and sing-a-longs! For, there only being 3 of us, It's amazing how much noise we can muster up! lol Bet the neighbours loved the peace last year! Well this year, It will be back to normal! lol. Dinner will be on the table for no later than 2pm. I will just make sure my glass comes with me when I have my usual bath in the morning along with choccies and bath goodies. Awww. I think I just got a twinge of excitement.

For some reason, It hasn't felt very Christmassy this year. I don't know If anyone else has noticed this? or Is It maybe just me? What I do know though, Is how absolutely freezing It Is!. I took ages to heat up last night. I was wrapped up In 4 layers aswell and still couldn't get warm. Can't believe that earlier today, I agreed to have a test run for our Christmas Dinner..... lol bought a huge stuffed Pork Roast, Roast Tatties, Carrots and yorkshire puddings! Tasted amazing on Sunday!! lol Now, can you all tell we love our food here? lol.

I have the cheek to grumble about being a lot heavier than usual! Well, Hmmm, I wonder why! lol. Och, If the truth be known, This Is the one time of year that everyone should be having big hot meals and be all cosied up with the fire on doing something they love! Ooeer! within reason of course! lol Must go just now and refill my cup of tea and check the oven. Back Soon. xx

Tags: Getting Cosy!

A Stressful Morning!

2007-12-13T14:34:00.000-08:00

Worst start to a day in a very long time. Left the house at the usual time to walk down my huge steep hill. Got to the very bottom and heard a voice from within saying "Where is your purse?" "In my bag" was my inward reply. Decided to double check and walked over to the closest pillar to look in my bag when I stood on an enormous dog poo! Hmmm. Flitting between wiping my foot and searching my bag, I started to panic as I had 15 mins to catch my bus.

I double checked my pockets and after saying a few loud and very choice words, I started to march furiously towards the bottom of the hill. I glanced across the road and saw a young lady waiting at the bus stop. Yesss I headed back the few yards and crossed over asking her if the bus was due now. I got a very strange look as she said "yes". I mumbled in a stressed voice how I'd lost my purse and was panicking in case I was going to be late. She stared and gave me a slight nod and forced a half smile.

The bus appeared moments later and the penny dropped! Hmmm.(not the best phrase!) I shouted and swore at the top of my voice that I had no purse. At that point she looked terrified and side stepped me to climb on as I raked in the bottom of my bag furiously for loose change. The bus had waited a few moments on me and I roared "Yesss, I've found a pound" holding it up in the air. I was only going 2 stops but It was greasy fast lightning speed I needed now to catch my bus.

I jumped off at my stop and legged it up the stairs to the house grabbed the flaming purse and flew back down stairs, ran across the road and got halfway to the next bus stop when the bus was almost there. I had to run, almost backwards waving my arm and bag out towards the road like a mad woman posessed. I climbed on, panting and puffing like an old cart horse and asked for the wrong place!

The driver and an extremely full bus were all staring as I insisted on my destination....(which of course was the one I was at!) Oh dear! I realised my mistake and burst out laughing and muttered that it was not a good day all the way to my seat!
I, unbelievably, made my original bus! These things are sent to try us! Roll on the weekend. lol. Take Care. Back Soon. xxx

Tags: A Stressful Morning!

Ginger Cat

2007-12-08T13:51:00.000-08:00

Saturday night and feeling good! Well hello my lovely darlings. Hard to believe I'm on 7.5% wine! lol. Had fabulous feedback from Rosebud and we have been texting back and forth our opinions on the XFactor. Semi final night and we're gripped. Saw snow falling outside the window earlier so had to make sure we had our "foster" cat indoors! Well! The person who owns her, couldn't care less whether she is alive or dead, so, as far as I'm concerned, she is welcome in this house, whenever she wants. She has her own bed.......(the end of ours) lol and she isn't any bother, she has stayed here for four months and been elsewhere for four nights during that time.

Ginger Cat is her name and she is very much a part of our family. She fits in just fine here as she loves her food! Hmm. The Daddy of the house took a lot of persuading as he insisted she lived along the road and wasn't our responsibility which, was true to a point. Except her owners have proved time and time again, that they are totally irresponsible as pet owners, as I have discovered, so rather than reporting them for being negligent, Ginger Cat stays here every night and has a fabulous meal, every day along with fresh water.

The wee lamb was so adoreable tonight, as she had obviously never seen a Christmas Tree or decorations before, by her reaction. I swallowed the lump in my throat and had to reassure her, it was okay. She did a very slow dance towards the tree and sniffed the decorations very warily.she lay down on the top of the t.v. and started to chew the red garland that was laid there. Awwww my poor baby. We assured her it was all cool. She is now cosied up cuddling in to the back of my wee treasure.

So glad that this is now the weekend. No hassles, No stress, Yeahhh, It's Fabulous and I'm feeling contented. Waheyyyy. lol. Fingers crossed for tonight's lottery. Roll on the time I can own my own cattery and take care of all the strays that need a happy, cosy home.The Mama is waiting. xxx

Tags: Ginger Cat.

My Rosebud.

2007-12-04T14:35:00.000-08:00

Tuesday again, this could be the new Saturday for me! lol back in my fav seat with the soothing tones of Mr Buble, making me shake my face, while pouting to his jazzy rhythmns. Had a pretty usual day at work, glad to get home and get all cosy comfy here. I spent the whole journey home on the bus remembering some pretty random stuff from the past, so Instead of whining about the weather or waffling the same old weekly nonsense, I decided I would take a trip down memory lane and share a few stories.

My sister who we shall call "Rosebud" is 2 years older than me, she couldn't be more different in so many ways, for example: She is tall, I'm a pixie. She is thin, I'm whalelike, She has beautiful hair, I look like an African Bushwoman. You get the general just here? lol, well, we are the closest in age out of all the sisters and we had our fair share of battles when growing up. I possibly won't be forgiven or could even be battered for mentioning some of those, but what the heck! Life is far too short.( she says, looking out her passport and case! lol )

I remember the two of us, sliding down the stairs inside sleeping bags, sitting on bed pillows. On one occassion, madam pushed me from the top of the stairs, deliberately, so I faked death at the bottom, a very brave move on my part, as there was the inevitability of a good old fashioned beating when I was rumbled. I kept it up for ages, lying as still as possible while tears dripped on my face and I could hear the wails of "Oh no" ," What have I done?" and "I'm so sorry, "Please wake up". When I braved it and opened my eyes laughing, I, took a rather severe beating!

Rosebud just loved to persuade me to climb on the handlebars of her bike and pedal like mad towards the biggest hill in our street. I remember screaming as the bike tore down hill and eventually crashed into the old stone causeway wall, as I flew over it at top speed! Ahhh the good old days! lol. Hindsight is a wonderful thing. We got in all sorts of trouble, always blaming each other. An all time classic was an altercation after a saturday afternoon lunch.

We were sat at the table, just the two of us, always a recipe for disaster. Can't remember how it started exactly, but I do, however, remember reading the paper and being bugged to "look", when I lowered the paper, I got a spoonful of jam flicked in my face, followed by very loud laughter! so I threw food back and ran round the table several times being chased, when I ran out the front door, I pulled it shut behind me! oopsie! I heard her foot go through one of the several small panes of glass. My poor dad had got such a fright when he heard, as he thought we had smashed the two enormous glass patio doors! lol.

My all time favourite story involving us both, was one of my dear old Aunts. To put you in the picture, our Auntie Mabel had a very deep, husky and slow, extremely well spoken voice. She was our poshest relative! It was around Teatime at my parents' when the phone rang and I answered to disgusting heavy breathing. I kept saying "Hello"? "Hello"? "Who is that"?. After no answer, I hung up. It rang again. The same thing happened. I said "Please stop phoning" "Thats disgusting" I told Rosebud, as I was upset and she reassured me it was okay, she said if the phone rang again, she would deal with it.

The phone rang 10 mins later and she twirled the phone lead round the door into the bathroom and said some very, very, bad and threatening words to my mystery dirty phonecaller. To our utter horror, the phone rang again and our mother answered it saying " Oh Hello Aunt Mabel" "Are you okay?" Apparently she was pretty shaken up after phoning a "wrong number" and getting loads of abuse!! Oopsie! Aww Rosebud, we had a lot of fun.

We topped and tailed for years, I miss that sometimes,especially, If I feel really sad, even now, at 37! lol. It's hard to believe you will be 40 really soon and I wish you a very happy day. I Love you very much. Thanks for the laughs and for being my big sis. xxxxxxxx

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Shep Pie!

2007-11-27T14:11:00.000-08:00

Tuesday night, all wrapped up like a fish supper listening to James Blunt, now normally I would probably be howling my eyes out thinking of all the sad occassions that have been, but not tonight! I'm feeling good. What a fabulous new album. Well done James. Keep that up and you may get an invite to one of my Sunday Roast Dinner's young man! lol Mmmm just had a wee bowl of choccy ice- cream with mandarins, yum!

My little treasure is sitting on the bed next to me reading a Trinny and Susannah book, won't be long before I hear "Mum" "You can't go out like that"! and by the yells coming from the livingroom, a goal has been scored. The cats are chillin in front of the fire and there is a real chrismassy feel floating about tonight. These are the nights I love the most.

Michael Buble is serenading me now. Mmmm he can come for Sunday Dinner too! lol. I had one of those cringeworthy laugh out loud moments on the bus coming back from work earlier this evening. After being informed we were having Shepherd's Pie for dinner, I was getting rather overexcited, the closer I was getting to home.

I sent a last text asking for my Shep Pie to be popped in the micro. the reply? "Don't tell John Noakes then! he be awfy upset." Bad man!. It tasted absolutely amazing. Not a tail or ear in sight! lol. Oh that's naughty!

Time to go to bed now, the new alarm clock goes off at 6.45am, It's a bit better than the chicken..... It's my little treasure saying quietly "Mum" "Time to get up!" I've learnt that It's a good Idea to actually get up on the 1st call though, as she gets louder! lol. Nite nite, sleep well, back soon. xx

Tags: Shep Pie!

Scorchio

2007-11-24T16:25:00.000-08:00

Im finding it almost impossible to get parked in front of this screen and do what I love doing best. It's been such a long time since I wrote anything. I'm actually rather cross with myself. I must put aside time to whinge and blabber on to all your good selves at least once a week! lol. Now let me see where on earth do I begin now to tell you about all the latest changes? Hmmm. I will simplify: It seems like many moons ago that I went to London ever since I've been back everything seems to have gone downhill.

I haven't been happy or settled in fact life has been a bit of a struggle. Glad it feels like I'm gaining control now and doing my best to sort out a lot of stuff. My weight still refuses to do what I say! lol This underactive thyroid nonsense is driving me nuts! one of the side effects is "flushing"! Hmmm. flushing indeed! yeah right! more like scorching!

Two or Three times a day my face feels like a furnace on the Inside and I keep checking the mirror to make sure I don't resemble Violet Beauregarde from Charlie and the Chocolate Factory! My amazingly, wonderful, thoughtful, and sensitive, man suggested it may be, "The Menopause"!!! Hmmm. amazingly enough, he is still in one piece!

Tonight is Saturday and I'm sober! I watched a very funny movie called White Chicks and it gave me the nudge I needed to get back on here again. It felt great to be laughing out loud. Totally exhausted myself though and need to sleep! lol. nite nite, sleep well. I will be back real soon. xx

Tags: Scorchio!

London

2007-10-07T06:26:00.000-07:00

Can't believe it's been almost a month since my latest adventure! After a very early start it was a short bus ride and very pleasant train journey with a lovely older lady who sat opposite me, I almost swallowed my puzzler when I first saw her, as she was the spitting image of my dead granny.! Hmmm, after several family swapping conversations and rude stares from me, we were there! Right in the centre of London. Kings Cross, I'd seen it on the T.V. before but not paid much attention to it, and there I was bustling along the road with my wheelie case feeling quite at home. The Hotel was just a stones throw away which was amazing.

Gosh, where do I start? The Hotel was lovely, The words..."3rd Floor"! upset me slightly when it was followed by "no lift", but hey! I was determined to have a good time. The room was very small but had its own bathroom and large fan on a shelf with its own remote control, which my wonderful other half had great amusement with,almost freezing me to death! or catching my hair as I walked past. Oh the Romance!

The extra digital channels went down well, home from home with me getting nowhere near that remote either! lol I'm convinced the bathroom door had the biggest spring in the world attached to it, which was a huge battle to get in and out safely, also a great source of amusement for the person watching the struggle! lol

We headed to Covent Garden then on to camden on the first night. I kinda ended up rather plastered in The Hawley Arms. No sign of Kate Moss or Amy Winehouse though! To be honest, they could've been there, but I was too smashed to have noticed. I did meet a rather Interesting guy sitting next to me at the bar who was quite coy about his band, playing down their success. The Band are called King Lizard and this rather charming guy was called Niro Knox.

I do, however remember having a debate with him about his hair colour and giving him, and the barmen a hard time about not knowing who Patsy Cline was! Typical drunk me! The Ladies Loos are downstairs and after being shown the way, I found myself climbing an endless amount of stairs trying to find my way back to the bar, when I wandered in to the Top Bar, where apparently, I found out afterwards, It's where the Celebs go! or as another lovely chap called Ben so lovingly pointed out, when I got back to my seat "All the saddo's hoping to spot a celeb go there aswell!" I took a bit of a teasing as you can imagine!

I hope that nobody, famous or not, remembers my little outburst when I staggered in, trying to get my breath back after all those stairs, cursing and whinging "Noooooo", "I Don't wanna be here!". "Where is the other bar"? Oh the shame!

Tuesday was spent sightseeing all day which was rather impressive considering I had crawled up the hotel stairs the night before! We took in all the sights and thoroughly enjoyed our boat trip on the Thames, made even more special by the scorching sunshine that had surrounded us the whole day. Wednesday was a magical trip to Harrods. I was made to feel really special and it was so nice. The afternoon was spent wandering around the Camden Markets. Another good day.

The Tube was the one thing I thought would terrify me, with past events etc, but everyone seemed to be watching everyone else and I felt a sense of Immense togetherness there. It was so fast, I felt like I was transported into another world every time we arrived at a new station!

I found London Fabulous, Interesting, Intriguing, Clean and Fast, very, very, Fast, even the birds were in a hurry! which was totally bizarre. Everyone was either on a mobile phone or attached to an mp3 player!. I am so pleased that I went and experienced another way of life. It wasn't like anything I'd ever Imagined before.

They always say that you will see at least one famous person in London, Well I saw zandra Rhodes and Ash from the X Factor (you know the cute guy with the big hair?) but my claim to fame was rather unbelievable.....almost walking right In to a T.V. camera crew filming a kids programme with 3ft orange haired trolls! So when you see the stupid looking,grinning woman pointing and laughing, carrying an enormous Great Britain bag at the traffic lights....you can smile, cos that'll be me! lol. xx

Tags: London.

Happy Birthday Sweetie

2007-10-06T15:15:00.000-07:00

Saturday the 6th Oct. As of 6.15am this morning and a rather rude awakening, I have been getting used to the idea of being a mum to a teenager! My little treasure, is now 13! So hard to believe. I think she has had a good day she got loads of lovely presents lucky little lady.

I had the nitemare senario of choosing a few last minute things, including the the cake! I went in the supermarket last night after work at 6pm and got in a taxi home at 8pm! (with 2 cakes!) I hadn't realised just how indecisive I was! Then again, this was no obvious feat, shopping for a teenager! Arghhhh.

I think it was a success, hard to tell really with the odd nod and mutter under her breath, why are us parents so uncool? Who decided this? I spent the whole day discreetly watching her like a hawk in case she needed me....Hmmmm, I soon realised I was misleading myself when she glared at me, like I had two horns and a tail then threw me out her room, needing her own "space" apparently!

Glad all my time spent in the kitchen, boiling eggs,cutting cheese,frying sausages,making 40,000 sandwiches and 2 million sausage rolls didn't go unnoticed, I'm pretty certain I heard a "thanks" as she was heading out the door, can't be 100% though.! Ahhh pesky teenagers! tsk. lol

11pm now and my bed is calling. Back Soon. Take Care. xx

Tags: Happy Birthday Sweetie.

A Break From The Norm

2007-09-14T13:04:00.000-07:00

Friday the 14th sep 8.32pm. Its been an okay week at work, rather quiet not much happening at home either, just been feeling rather excited tonight as I'm going away on monday for a few days to London. Passed through there when I was 16 heading to France but hardly remember it.

I have butterflies in my tummy at the thought of the tube and how busy the places will be, but I'm going to be brave and go with the flow. It will just be myself and mister man and we will be staying in a hotel, so It will be strange. I've got the arduous task of getting all organized for going, as I haven't done anything at all! Tomorrow will be a very busy day no doubt.

I will check back in when we get home and hopefully have some happy memories and good stories to tell. I'm looking forward to going to Harrods and the Camden Markets. The Itinery has been rewritten several times but Wednesday will be the main "shopping" day. It will be nice to get away, a break always re-charges the batteries and this is long overdue for us both, First time staying in a hotel together in 16 years!! lol. I'm going to go and get a good nights sleep and be ready for a very early start. Back Soon. Take Care. xx

Tags: A Break From The Norm.

Feeling Poorly!

2007-09-07T15:51:00.000-07:00

Friday Night 10.30pm. Where does time go? There have been quite a few changes since I wrote last. I won't bore you all with the details and keep it short 'n ' sweet but it would seem my "whaleness" "waves of depression" and "excruciatingly painful lower back" kinda got me so down, and so uncomfortably sore, I headed straight for the doc's.... outcome? A severely underactive thyroid! hmmmm.

Hence the reason I haven't felt like writing. To be honest, I felt sorry for myself and didn't take It too well that I would have to take tablets every day for the rest of my life but I'm okay with It all now.

I gave myself a good talking to, after a totally unrelated conversation with an 81 year old wonderfully wise lady, whom I've never met, made me realize that there are people far worse of than me, in much worse situations. she told me that she is her husband's sole carer and calmly explained that even though he has had 2 strokes and has to be fed by tubes, said she once had the choice of putting him in a home many years beforehand and she refused outright,

Her words...."When I took my vows almost 60 years ago, " I meant every word". It transpired that her only source of a "break" from her constant caring was her home help, who came round once a week for 2 hours! she said it was "hard" sometimes but she has good day's and bad day's like everyone else! she then finished her conversation by saying "There's not much point in complaining, "It doesn't change anything," "We all just have to get on with it".

That was It. Right there. All it took for me to stop being selfish and realize how well off I am. I didn't get a chance to thank her or even tell her what she had done for me, she was a truly remarkable lady. I won't ever forget her. I feel lucky to have been shown her amazing strength and dedication. xx

Tags: An Angel.

Our Shopping Trip

2007-08-19T13:57:00.000-07:00

Sunday evening 9pm another weekend almost over. Managed to persuade my little cherub to go on a shopping trip yesterday. It wasn't too bad. We headed off at 7.30am for a 2 and a half hour bus journey. Armed with magazines, water, sarnies and chocolate, we were all prepared. bought a few things there and had a chance to get a blether. I did try and hurry her past Greg's for her usual "chicken Pasty" in the shopping centre, telling her I needed to get a seat and a cup of tea, After a whole load of moaning about it being Lunch time and how we'd been walking round for hours, I agreed on the nearest place round the next corner for sheer peace! I regretted that decison as soon as we walked through the door.

It was so posh. I though "oh no, I can't really afford this!" We were soon met with a size zero stunning little thing who was really nice, hmmm. We were offered the choice of the window seat or the booth. I opted for the booth. After being handed the menu's, (the size of dinner tray's,) I took one look and wanted to bolt. "Are you ready to order your drinks? or would you like a few more minutes?" god she was fast! I opted for the few more minutes so I could check my purse. I didn't want to spoil our "girly" day out so after initially asking her if she wanted to do a runner and being told "No mum, It's nice here", Size zero's pressure and my guilt helped me decide to stay.

The tea was lovely, as was her amazing choccy milkshake, which I was allowed one sip off! Our macaroni cheese was bubbling away in their little tiny dishes, obviously created for barbie and her pals. Garlic bread to share and a sprinkling of parmesan brought the bill to a staggering £21! Why did I refuse that chicken pasty? That will teach me. the food was nice don't get me wrong I just couldv'e done with a whole lot more and a whole lot cheaper! The only truly memorable part of the whole day was my little lamb going bright purple as she laughed so much at erm.... me! I had belted up the stairs and rushed through the top door to the Loo where she had gone already, except I never saw the sign on the door which read: Mind The Step!

I swear I flew.The toilet door opened and there she stood doubled up laughing, asking if I was okay stumbling half way down the hall. Hmmm that wasn't a step It was a hill in disguise. Glad it humoured her for the rest of the day. Missed the bus home by 5 mins and had to wait in a bus shelter for an hour! Treated myself to a blonde hair dye for a change. Got home at teatime,dyed hair and put on fake tan, wish I hadn't though as after half an hour I resembled a cross between an Alsation and David Dickinson.

Went food shopping today wearing a hat. Tried to shake off other half in hair dye aisle, Too late. "Don't even think about it" were the growly words from behind me. Well this time I had no choice! I couldn't go to work looking like that. So I now have Black hair! lol. Luckily it didn't all fall out! My blonde day's are now officially over. Sleep Well. xx

Tags: Our Shopping Trip